Is our society built to dumb us down?

And are most people too numb to even notice?

When I was working at the bank I remember a number occasions when I’d be writing emails and I couldn’t think of the right words to use.

I remember getting super frustrated at myself, thinking I was getting dumber.

After all my years at school and uni. All the reading, writing stories and essays, and using language in such a colourful way. This really bothered me.

Not to mention, I graduated top of my English class in high school and my degree is in Journalism. How could I just forget like that?

And it’s not like I was in a completely dead end job where I no longer had to use my brain. So why did I feel like everything I had learnt was slowly slipping away?

I was numb.

Here’s what I now realise was happening.

I was dumbing myself down because I was constantly numbing myself. From the moment I turned 18, until I quit the bank, I was in a state of numbness.

Once I graduated uni and started to work my way higher up the corporate ladder, it got worse.

The workload got more and more unbearable. And I felt more of a need to zone out. To escape. I didn’t want to use my brain outside of work because I was so exhausted.

So instead of reading I’d stare at the tv screen. Any opportunity I had, I’d be out drinking and partying. I lived on fast food.

Numb. Numb. Numb.

It got to the point where I remember wishing we could just have a uniform. Because even deciding what to wear each day felt like such a chore.

Me, the girl who LOVES clothes. Who expresses her personality through clothes. Didn’t want to even think about clothes.

I went from interning at an online fashion magazine in uni, to not even wanting to have to choose what to wear.

I was so exhausted by my job, so disconnected from my truth, that I didn’t even want to think for myself.

My career literally sucked the life force out of me. To the point where I would rather just have someone else make decisions for me.

I felt so guilty for being so miserable. I mean, to an outsider I had such a dreamy life, what did I have to be so upset about? But deep down I knew, working in the same job until retirement was killing my soul.

And I drank more and more because it was the only way I could numb out from this life I hated so much.

Alcohol kills our spirit.

I recently came across something that hit me hard. This is what it said:

“Alcohol is said to have come from the Arabic term ‘Al-Kuhl’ and ‘Al-Gawl’ which means ‘Body Eating Spirit’

It’s literally designed to suck the life out of you. To keep human consciousness at a low vibrational level.

No wonder why I felt like I was getting dumber.

Alcohol is one of the worst drugs on the market. Yet it’s still legal. And even in the midst of a ‘global pandemic’ (if we can even call it that) it’s deemed an ‘essential service’ — go figure.

And it’s not the only thing used to dumb us down. The fluoride in our tap water, yeah that’s pretty toxic too. I had no idea about this until recently when I did my past life regression. I mean why would it cross my mind that our water would be used to poison us?

At the end of my session my shaman was clearing my energy and she recommended I stop drinking tap water. She noticed my third eye was blocked, and fluoride is a big contributor to this. As it calcifies our pineal gland.

What’s the deal with our pineal gland?

Our pineal gland, also known as our third eye, is what is able to see the true world. It’s our connection to source, spirit, and other dimensions.

No wonder people in power don’t want us accessing it. Then we’d see right through all their lies and mind control tactics.

So they fluoridate our water source, and we unsuspectingly drink it without question. Thankfully I’ve always struggled to drink my 8 glasses a day so at least I haven’t flooded my body with too much of it.

Maybe that’s why my intuition was always still a little stronger.

And in the last 4 months since completely eliminating tap water (I use a filter) I’ve had much deeper connections to the spiritual realms.

You can read more about the pineal gland and how to decalcify it here — https://www.gaia.com/article/how-to-awaken-your-third-eye

Ok, let’s backtrack a little bit…

Stressed and depressed.

So with all that drinking, numbing, and not wanting to face my reality. It’s no wonder I ended up stressed and depressed. Crying on my bedroom floor, unable to bring myself to face one more day of work.

That landed me on a psychologist’s couch, which of course led me to a doctor’s office to get a prescription for anti-depressants. I was so embarrassed. How could I have reached this point?

Let me tell you something.

Rock bottom moments like that are not a sign of weakness. The people who built the system want you to think it is, because then you’ll look for a quick fix (aka Big Pharma’s miracle antidepressants) so you can go back to normal and not draw any attention to yourself.

But actually, it’s your soul screaming out for attention.

“Listen to meeeee.” Mine was shouting. “You’ve become so disconnected. It’s time to figure out who you are again.”

In that moment I had two choices. Take the ‘medicine’ (aka numb myself back out again), OR try to learn more about why I was feeling this way and actually make a change.

I decided not to take the drugs.

Instead, I took 6 weeks stress leave and enrolled myself in an online Self Belief Intensive, and so began my personal development journey.

5 years later, this is what I’ve come to realise about our society. They want us to get sick, they want us to take drugs. That’s how big corporations keep making money.

I didn’t know what it was at the time, but something inside me said no, and I decided to listen. And every day I am so grateful I still had enough Spirit inside of me to trust in my inner wisdom.

Quitting my job.

Not long after completing the Self Belief Intensive, I came across an online business opportunity. Again something inside me took control. I took a chance on something that I would’ve been totally skeptical of in the past.

That business gave me life again. I would wake up every morning and blog before I had to get ready for work. I wasn’t even making money, but I was just so excited to be focusing on something I loved. And it gave me hope, knowing I had a plan to exit the corporate world.

6 months later I quit my job and moved to Bali. I found time to read again, to connect to nature again, to write, to soak up every moment, and to fully enjoy life again.

I got deeper into personal development and it’s been one helluva journey. It’s taken me 5 years to unlearn and recondition myself. To reconnect to who I am and why I’m really here. And each day I’m still going deeper and learning more about myself.

It’s not an easy path to take, but when you learn to truly BE YOURSELF, that’s when life really begins.

And since moving to the Sunshine Coast things really amplified. I learnt to cook and fuel my body with the right nutrients. I pretty much stopped drinking. I realised, if I have to drink to enjoy a situation and people, then I’d rather just not put myself in that situation. Sure, it became lonely at times. But it was better than getting drunk and doing what I didn’t want to do, just to fit in.

The problem with society.

I feel this is the problem we’re seeing in society today. People are so exhausted, so disconnected, they don’t even want to open their eyes to see what’s really out there. They don’t even know who they are, or they’re too afraid of judgement so they keep hiding and playing small.

They numb themselves because it’s easier than facing the reality they’ve created for themselves. And they don’t realise they have the power to change it. It amazes me how many people don’t even think about why our world is the way it is.

“Be careful not to normalise the systems we live in so much that you forget they were created, which means they can be dismantled”

-Lisa Olivera

Why are we so conditioned to go to school, go to uni, get a job, buy a car, buy a house, build a family? Who decided this was the best way to live?

And why do we berate ourselves so much if we don’t accomplish all of this stuff by some age that society deems is acceptable?

I used to think my life was over because I hadn’t accomplished all of this stuff by 30.

But the more I thought about it, the more I realised I didn’t want it. And the more I realised I didn’t want it, the more I thought there was something wrong with me.

Quitting the corporate world in pursuit of answers was a crazy decision. I had no plan, no idea what I was searching for, no idea what I was getting myself into.

I just knew I had to do it.

An inner knowing took over me and I just trusted it was going to all work out.

Has it always been easy? Far from it.

But it’s definitely been worth it.

We are all meant for so much more than what society has led us to believe. And when we learn to drown out the noise, to listen to our hearts, and take the crazy leaps of faith. That’s when we enter a world of magic and possibility.

That’s when we truly start to think for ourselves and make decisions based on what’s best for us. They might not always make sense. Most of the time they might seem totally insane. But when you have that unwavering certainty in yourself and the universe, when you realise the infinite possibilities all around you, when you know how to tap into source and work with energy, you realise magic really does exist.

And it’s there for all who are willing to see.

Are you ready to stop hiding all your magic and start showing the world who you really are?