100 and Under
Is It My Turn Now To Fully Close This Painful Cycle In Life?
A sad lifetime story she wrote, is it worth keep waiting for the miracle?
I don’t want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them.
— Oscar Wilde
Is this life cycle really over? It is half of the century, almost my whole life…Do I still have time to ‘live’ my new abundant cycle?
Hard to believe that it’s already two years ago when I stumbled upon the Libra tarot card reading on YouTube. It touched me so much and made me cry. Since then, these YouTube videos have become my healing therapist.
It made me come to peace with myself, and forgive myself and the people that hurt me tremendously.
Ever since then, YouTube tarot reading has become my close ally. I have been trying to take a peep into the future. I am afraid that I may miss out on the opportunity like last time, which caused me so much pain and regret.
I could have avoided the missed opportunities IF I could foresee this..as we all know there is no ‘IF’ and a second take on life.
Sometimes I binge-watched the videos when my emotion was very unstable. Different tarot readers may carry different messages and insights because it’s a general reading. This enables me to adapt it to my situation and pay more attention to certain aspects of my life so that I don’t miss it.
I find this helpful. It made me more alert to the hints that came my way. The universe will always give you hints and it’s up to you to grasp it and act upon it. Nothing will fall in your lap directly.
After retreating for nearly a year, I slowly came to realize how could I be so blinded by my emotions. My negative emotion was too consuming! It caused me to fail to look at the whole issue objectively. As my best friend suggested- something is underdeveloped in my brain.
I promised myself that I would be the master of my emotions and life. I won’t let it sabotage my happiness ever again for the new cycle. Being late is better than never!
“Emotion can be the enemy, if you give in to your emotion, you lose yourself. You must be at one with your emotions because the body always follows the mind.”
On the theme of self-love, here’s another article worth checking out:
Admire Your Imperfections by Tim S. M.
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