Interview with Kira Dawn

I would like to be remembered for just being happy and being true to myself. I don’t need a big remembrance speech. I’m good enough for me.

Kira Dawn is an extremely powerful soul. She is gorgeous from inside and outside and I find her write-ups hard-hitting too. It was a sheer sign of fortunate luck when I came across her via Medium and since then I have never missed any of her posts because she writes straight from the heart. I love her for her honesty and courage to speak up for things, others would have hesitated all their lives.

I could relate to all of her posts because I have been through the same journey of life with setbacks and miseries but it makes me realize we are human at the end of the day. We cannot stretch ourselves beyond a certain limit and there would be days when we have to gather ourselves no matter how badly we want others to gather us.

I am very lucky to have found a best friend in my Gorgeous Mess who is living miles away from me yet so close to me. She is brave and sensible. She is curious and enticing. She is fantastic and awesome. I would love to meet her someday as in person until then I am keeping her with me in my words.

I loved her answers and I hope you would rejoice reading them too.

1. Where do you belong to? Is there anything you would like to change about the place you belong to?

I simply belong to the soul that God has given me. Without this soul I would be nothing more than an empty vessel/shell of a human being.

I would not change anything about where I belong to because I have such a good relationship with God and feel that I learn something new each and every day. Without him I would be lost.

2. What sets your soul on fire?

Johnny Cash. I know it’s a strange answer. I hear his music and his voice and I feel like I have met God. His love of a woman and of God beings me to my knees. I can only hope to one day gain the knowledge that he once had.

3. Which one is your favorite family memory and why?

My favorite family memory was waking up every Christmas morning with both my mom and my dad there. My dad would videotape everything and we would laugh together and have so much fun with each other.

4. Is there anyone in your life you could give your life for? If yes, why?

I would like to say I would give/sacrifice my life for anybody. I think it is a lot easier said than done. I would definitely say my husband, my mother, my father. I would do this to show all the love I have for them in my heart. The love I cannot always show. Preeeet my bestie also for you and I am being serious. The kindness you have shown me has moved me.

5. Do you pour love into self from time to time?

I think I love myself too much from time to time. I think this is a symptom of being an only child. I love who I am and work everyday on loving myself even more and more. Since I have been writing on Medium I am finding my self love more than ever.

6. How often you observe the people near you?

I graduated with a BS in Psychology so I am always observing the people around me. I’m the queen of observing without other people thinking I am. I like to psychoanalyze. It is fun for me. Plus I learn a lot!

7. Why do you hope for? Does it change something within you or around you?

I have a crazy bitch ass answer to this. I hope for the end of the world. I think we have ruined this one already. It’s time to go. I hope this not because I’m morbid. I hope for this because I can’t wait to get to Heaven. A please where it will be carefree. No more worrying about bills to pay, etc. once I got out on my own I realized we all work so hard just to one day die. It’s kind of sad.

It does change something within me. My dad is extremely wealthy and I’m trying to show him that I don’t need to work. I love writing and it helps my soul. He can help me. He just has to want to. I realize life is too short to not do what I love.

8. How does it feel like being a woman to you?

I both love and hate being a woman. If you are a pretty woman it comes with a lot of jealousy and you never seem to succeed in life. This is how I felt anyway. Women are so mean to one another and I always was talked about or gossiped about behind my back. That really hurts. Plus the maintenance of being a woman…too much for me to handle…lol! I tend to think more like a man and I know this for a fact. I grew up to be just like my father who was the first super lawyer ever to be named in Florida. I have a very manipulative, methodical mind like him.

9. What you would like us to remember you for?

I would like to be remembered for just being happy and being true to myself. I don’t need a big remembrance speech. I’m good enough for me.

10. How would you describe your life?

My life is a paradox. I have a duality that lives inside me. My answers to you today may be different tomorrow. I have struggled a lot in my life. In my opinion struggling is all relative so I don’t mean to offend anybody.

My dad filed for divorce when I was 14. Let’s say 1994. I am an only child so I had quite the active imagination. My mom couldn’t get out of bed. She was on Xanax and was too depressed. She lost 30 pounds. In the beginning she had to drive me to school, but as soon as my friends could drive I never saw my mother. My dad has built his first 1.5million home and then left. I saw him once a week and we did fun things like shopping etc. Little did I know it would not be until 1999 that they actually got divorced. I thought it didn’t bother me, but I got very sexual with the boys in high school. I soon developed obsessive compulsive disorder and the anxiety it brought was debilitating.

When I left for University of Miami I developed an eating/exercising disorder. Bulimic and anorexic. Also going to daily workouts everyday. I knew how many calories were in everything.

Last, but not least the ten year run with drug addiction. Sent to 10 rehabs never with the intent on getting clean until I found heroin. I graduated from cocaine to shooting heroin and it was bad. I overdosed and almost died quite a few times! Thank you Jesus for saving me!

Now my life is awesome! Sober 8+ years…no I don’t keep an exact date. That’s a way to get yourself in trouble. I love in a beautiful city in Florida called Boca Raton with my husband Brad. Very happy life!

11. What keeps you on your toes and how do you like to spend your time?

Ugh oh! 11. My favorite number. Medium keeps me on my toes. I never know who I’m going to meet and I’m finding myself a better writer by day! I met my best friend her…in case you all don’t know her name it is…Gurpreet Dhariwal. Better known as Preeeeeeeet to me! I like to outdo myself and hope others enjoy.

I spend my time reading and writing for Medium. Watching movies. Exercising which is me dancing around the house busting my ass like I am 20 when I will be 39 in 20 days! Spending time with the hubby and that’s what I like to do!

12. When life gives you lemon what do you make out of it?

God lemonade would be so easy to say, but so cliche. When life gives me lemons I bite that bitch and get that sour taste in my mouth. That sour taste leads to my sour poems about slitting people’s throats and being a whore or ho. So throw some lemons my way and let me show all you all bitches how it is done!

13. What mystery of life you would like to have an answer for?

I am not interested in any of life’s mysteries. If I was I would be questioning my faith. I will just roll with the punches. I believe patience is a virtue and I’m willing to wait. It allows me to live in the present. Not in the past or future. Who knows when it will be our last day here. For somebody else it could be 40 years for me it could be tomorrow. Who knows?

14. How were you different five years ago from what you are today?

I was such a little bitch 5 years ago. I was very demanding of my father. I never stopped to see where he was coming from. I was selfish. I was narcissistic. Everything should be done my way. As I matured I realized what I was becoming and I am not always perfect, but this is major improvement. Lol!

15. What would you like to leave as your legacy? Is there any message you would like to communicate to us?

Kira was a lovely girl who spent her time giving to others. Was always there to lend an ear and cheer up somebody’s spirit. She had a way with words and you could feel God within her. God Bless You Kira. See you in Heaven or wherever it is we go! By the way Bitch…you be a ho! Happiness surrounding me!

I am adding a 16 because it’s my 2nd fav number!

16. Thank you Preeeeet for all you have done and what you provide the Medium Community. You are amazing and a best friend to me. I love you straight from the heart and when you are done interviewing everybody. I would like to interview you!

Love Always, Kira Dawn Your Gorgeous Mess