In The Company Of Narcissists

It’s not me, it’s you

The term narcissism originates from Greek mythology where a young man named Narcissus fell in love with his own image reflected in a pool of water. Narcissistic individuals are full of delusions of grandeur.

My experience with this is one of rage and frustration. It all began with a woman who I met due to certain circumstances. I shall not give this unsavoury person the satisfaction of having many paragraphs detail her, but I shall give a brief summary of what makes her a narcissist.

This individual is one of the most obnoxious and self-absorbed people I have ever had the misfortune of coming across. They are obsessed with their looks and like to believe that because they are slim, this means they are far prettier than anyone else. In her eyes, I was lazy because I followed a path that was completely different from hers.

We had an argument about this which caused her to gaslight me. She had managed to twist the entire situation to make it look like she was the victim. I had old friends turn against me because she had managed to get inside their heads. She honestly believed that I was jealous of her, which is laughable.

After a particularly severe argument, I refused to speak to her from then on. The circumstances in which we met made it difficult for me to avoid her, but I managed to evade speaking to such an abhorrent creature.

The most dangerous element of a narcissist is the ability to sway the judgment of others. This one in particular was able to slip under the radar, which only infuriated me even more. Most of the rage bore out of the inability of others to see her for the evil she was. How couldn’t they see what she was doing?

It got to a point where every time I saw her; I had an urge to commit violence. This soon extended to just the mere thought of her. Ultimately, the thing that fills me with the most fury is that she got away with it in the end. She failed to apologise for what she had done because she doesn’t think she has anything to be sorry for!

From what I hear, life is going pretty well for her, which continues to baffle me. I lost the only man to have loved me to cancer before Christmas, and he was the most wonderful man. He is a far better person than she will ever be, and he was cruelly taken away.

My lifelong mission has been to improve myself spiritually and philosophically. I will continue to gain all useful knowledge that I can weaponise them against her, not to fill any narcissistic need of mine, but rather to win this game of chess that she started.

Her sense of grandiosity would bowl over an entire football stadium. From her belief that she was the most good-looking person in the room to her belief that she was so hardworking. Her devotion to working is what ultimately caused her to latch onto me and try to take me down.

This experience only encourages me more to be as successful as I possibly can, so she and every other individual who has tried to bully me can see that I am far more than what they thought. I am philosophically minded, unlike her, therefore I am better able to outsmart her low blows and disdainful remarks.

“Many victims of narcissistic abuse are hypersensitive. They don’t want to be told by others that they wrong when they fight with their narcissist. They see it as standing up for themselves, when in reality it is perpetuating what the narcissist wants- drama and a reaction.” ― Shannon L. Alder, The Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Bible