I’m Tired of Hoping to Go Viral

Is that you too?

I published an article lately about how I built a six-figure business using the law of attraction.

I wrote this article as an experiment.

While the method I shared was legit, there were a few details I omitted in the article.

First, I haven’t talked about how much money I have spent building my business (my expenses).

Making six figures doesn’t mean it’s a profitable business. I have a lot of expenses.

And second, I didn’t mention the currency of these six figures.

I didn’t specify I was using Japanese Yen. And 100,000 JPY is only worth 1000 USD.

So, why did I do that?

The experiment was to see if people would read my article and if it would go viral.

And I wanted to go viral because I’m broke, and it’s getting worse.

I fell for a cryptocurrency scam lately and lost 700$. On top, my neighbor sexually harassed me, and I need to move home. Moving home costs money.

So it is natural that I want to go viral.

I’ve heard of all of these Medium writers earning more than 4000$ for an article and even sometimes 10,000$. It sounds like the easy solution for filling the gap in my pocket.

And I admit, there were a few times in my life as a writer on Medium when I went viral. But I never made more than 1500$ for one article, and it was back in 2020.

So yes, even with my 7,5k followers, I’m admiring Tim Denning and other significant Medium writers behind my screen.

I’m wondering why they are making it and not me. As a result, I feed off the energy of lack, reinforcing my sense of victimhood and making even less money…

Is it really about great content?

I read things like: produce great content! And I’ve always thrived for it!

I’ve shared free advice on sex, love, and relationships, something I usually charge 200$ the hour to my coaching clients.

But lately, I don’t know what to write.

I see writers writing about their life — why they don’t want to work more, or why they are fat — and they still make more than me.

I want to write about my life too! Do you want to know how depressed I am now? It might make you feel less miserable to know how miserable I feel now.

In any case, I lost my inspiration and excitement about writing about relationships and sexuality.

Each time I write, I receive emails telling me how I should behave, and it just makes my depression worse.

All of these strangers who have high expectations of me:

• People working in the same field have high expectations of me.
• Men I date have high expectations of me.
• Friends have high expectations of me.
• Family has high expectations of me.
• Society has high expectations of me.

Here is one example of an email I have received lately.

Well, I can’t be mad at these strangers concerned about me. Judging is a normalized human behavior, isn’t it?

I have high expectations of myself, too, right? I want to get viral, for example. It is a high expectation for an small tantra teacher and sex and relationship coach…

Maybe I should drop the hope to get viral one day and keep writing about my life. It seems that people love to read dramas.

Or is that a new attempt to be viral?

I’m tired.

If you want to give me a push, buy me a beer! It will cheer me up a little and help me financially. Thank you!