I’m Tired of Giving My Creative Energy to Other People

It’s time to protect my inner writer and safeguard her spirit.

The longer I run my business, the more I realize just how precious my creative energy is.

And how important it is for me to safeguard it.

Up until now, I’ve been expending it on my clients, day after day. For three years, I’ve been using my supply of creative energy for the projects and pursuits of others.

It’s time for me to change the name of the game.

This well of inspiration is limited.

Creative energy is a precious commodity. It cannot be squandered or taken for granted.

Especially as writers, our creative energy comes from a source that is only so full.

After a certain amount of time we have to take the time to refuel that energy bank.

The longer I run my business, the more frustrated I become with spending my creative energy on people other than myself

Don’t get me wrong, I love my clients. I could argue that I have some of the best clients in the world.

But at the end of the day, the thing that I’m most passionate about is creative writing. And in order to have a regular output of writing, I have to ensure that I have enough energy left at the end of the day to create.

Most days, I find myself exhausted and lacking in any further energy to then go and write.

I’m choosing to be selfish and am reserving this valuable energy for myself.

I made the decision a few months ago that by January 2020, I hope to be creative writing as my full-time job.

That isn’t to say that I plan to drop all of my current clients (because I actually really enjoy working with some of them).

But it does mean that I want to limit the number of jobs that require me to use up copious amounts of my creative energy.

Before now, I felt too guilty or scared to admit that I just want to be creative writing as my full-time work, and ideally not be working with clients anymore.

As an introvert, working from home quietly by myself is the work environment I thrive in most.

And before now, I felt bad for not wanting to work with other people. I almost felt like it made me an ass or a bad person.

I’ve decided that I’m no longer going to feel guilty for being exactly who I am, and for protecting the work environment that is best for me as a career woman and a creative.

I finally have the courage to put myself first.

Life is too short for us to spend time in our career doing something that isn’t fulfilling.

Especially as a business owner, I even more so have the opportunities to build the exact work that I want for myself (granted there’s a need in the market for them).

I’m giving myself permission to say screw you to all the naysayers and go for the career path I’ve wanted to pursue since I was a pre-teen.

For most of my life, I’ve been told that a full-time career in creative writing is unrealistic.

The fear of others has convinced me for to long to not shoot for stars and go for what I really want.

It’s the season of me going after what I want.

Final word.

It’s time to overcome my fears!

And overcome the fears of others, who are projecting their worries onto me.

I’ve been watching other inspiring women online make the jump from their 9–5 to creative running full-time, and their stories show me what’s possible.

I feel like, after 3 years of running my social media marketing company, it’s my time to make a change.

I’m ready to shift to my greatest passion of all, the one which I’ve always hoped to do but wasn’t sure I could ever make happen for myself.

I’m ready to see what I can achieve, if I really put my mind to it.

My creative energy is precious, and it’s in limited supply. From here on out, I need to safeguard it.