I’m Taking My Power Back

A Perception Shift

I used to be in exceptional physical shape. As I've grown older and have become far less physical, mostly due to lack of need, I've come to find that my body is sore and tired all of the time. This is all I ever seem to focus on.

I'm at the gym right now. I noticed as I was doing my warm-up on the treadmill that the aches are back and they are screaming. I feel weak. I feel sore. I feel very unlike myself and unlike how I want to feel.

This has got me thinking, I didn't ever think like this or feel this way about my body when I was in great shape. I never thought about what hurt or what was wrong or what could be wrong, I didn't have time for that. I only thought about my strength and the power I could harness from it. My body was clean, my mind was clean, I thought of myself as a Titan, insofar as what I wanted to personally accomplish and what I believed I was capable of.

I think back to sports in High School. I think back to Kung Fu. I was a fucking badass. I realize, just now, I don't like saying was. I am ready to replace that with a simple, I am... and let my actions speak when they are more powerful than words.

I am a badass. I can do anything I decide I want to. I've proven this to myself in the past. I'm not activating Villain-Ego here, nor am I setting myself up for failure or disappointment. What I'm doing is making a conscious shift in my thinking. I am no longer going to constantly focus on what hurts or what is wrong with my body (I can sit with those moments in meditation and address them properly there), instead, I'm going to focus on what's in the tank. How much fuel do I have? What am I going to do with it? When's my next recharge? Right on, let's fucking do this.

This is the new, old Me. I'm taking charge and not letting those energy-sapping thoughts rob me of any chance I've got. I'm not pushing through the pain or ignoring it, I'm just not prioritizing it anymore. I'm taking back my power.

There are only so many moments in life. We never know how many any of us have; we never know when our last will be. I'm done forfeiting my time to the pain or to the little thoughts. I'm rising up. I'm crowning myself today. I'm the King of my moment, my time, my energy. I deserve the best me. Everyone I know and love deserves the best me. The world—this moment, deserves the best me. And if I'm less than my best, at least I can stand happy and proud that I know I gave myself everything that I am, and that's always my best.

I am King Anthony and I'm taking myself back.

© agod

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