I’m Discouraged By Medium

Does Slow and Steady Win The Race?

I have been writing on this platform for five months now and I am impressed with the little bit of success I have achieved. What I must be honest about is that I am discouraged. I try my best to keep a positive mindset as I embark on this freelancing journey. I try my best to keep in mind that consistency matters. But in regard to consistency, I am at a crossroads. I am stuck between posting every day and taking a hiatus for mental health.

Having a severe mental illness has not made this process an easy one. Most days, I use my life experiences as inspiration for articles. I write on what I know and what I know is a lot of strife. Strife has enabled me to write about narcissistic abuse, drug addiction, and mental illness. I am not sure if my poetry has a lane on this platform, but I am willing to try.

Being alone and introverted also makes this process difficult because I crave real connections. I try my best not to take anything personally, but I do. I take it personally when I save stories to my reading list, go through them all, leave many comments, and that writer never makes their way to my stories. I have followed and unfollowed several writers because of this.

I live on disability and I am ready for a new life. I am not expecting to become a millionaire, but I do wish to eventually earn four figures. I just want to do what I love and what comes easy for me. That thing is writing. I have been a writer and a reader since I was 8 years old. I am now 32 trying to play catch-up. I am trying to be patient.

I’m down this week. I need some encouragement, guys.