If You Go To Hell, Will You Come Back Intact?

Time keeps on ticking, ticking, ticking. Where is my future?

I didn’t sign up for this descent into hell and back. The you I began to love, lost his footing on the path. I’m searching deep inside my treacherous past. Have our paths crossed over lifetimes, and caught up at last?

A wolf in sheep’s clothing, indeed a man with a past. Perhaps I didn’t know you — a vision invented beyond my grasp. The years you lived hard have been crippled by trauma. Shooting at a future — do I recognize this drama?

You can be cold and calculated. Tell me, where did you go? I glimpse traces of your smell lingering high, dangerously low. Sometimes late at night, I long for your simmering touch. Why can’t I reach out willingly for as much?

Called long ago, I didn’t know why. Followed you there, with little more than a sigh. I thought that I knew you. I know not this man. Are we trapped in a cave, sand slipping through our hands?

Did I seek you out with the mission to be punished, or are we two damaged animals hiding in the laurels? The trees, they’ve grown tall; the forest, it’s fierce. Can we look in the mirror and let the reflection pierce our armor?

It’s a mystery to me. I still don’t know why. Tears fall like icicles from my brilliant blue eyes. Can’t you help me? Save me? Can you hear my desperate plea? I’m drowning, my love. Is there hope here we don’t see?

Holding on with Superman’s grip — it’s stronger than steel. Intertwined in our living, trying to heal. Can we hold tight and fast, bring about a new future? Find a climate at long last that grows a bit cooler?

Many thanks to my friends and mentors:

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