I Was Scarred From a Movie
And It Wasn’t Even a Horror Movie
Before YouTube let you watch full movies with advertisements. There were full movies uploaded by YouTubers.
One of the movies I came across is the movie Kids (1995). I knew it was risque and there were scenes that added shock value.
The movie traumatized me. Okay, traumatized is a strong word but the movie stayed with me.
The movie follows two boys who live in New York. They love to party, do drugs, and only live to have sex.
The opening scene of the movie opens up with the main character making out with an adolescent girl.
This girl looks no older than thirteen. You could tell that she is a literal child.
I don’t know why I continued watching the movie after that scene. I remember being disgusted immediately.
I have been sheltered my whole life. Of course, I grew up with kids that lived their lives in the fast lane. Though it wasn’t put at the forefront as what this movie portrayed. That’s why this movie was so disturbing to me.
The entire premise of the movie is that kids are having sex. It brings awareness to the possible repercussions that come with having unprotected sex.
The whole thing grosses me out. Kids having sex. I know it happens but I wasn’t expecting to see so much tongue. Before watching the movie I thought adults would be portraying kids. Even then I was expecting teenagers but older teenagers. But no, they are literal kids. Kind of like Euphoria but not these actors. These actors were actual kids.
Towards the end of the movie, there’s a party scene where there are literal children smoking weed. I mean ten-year-olds!
It makes you think about what kids are doing nowadays. Well, this film was made in the 90s but the point still stands.
There are other scenes that are permanently etched in my brain.
I don’t want to go into detail. But there are two horrific scenes of girls being sexually assaulted. Which horrified me. I shuddered at the idea that children would actually do that.
As a sheltered teen, in high school and middle school, this is what “living life” looked like. When I was a kid to my peers it looked like a glamorized lifestyle. The film does glamorize it but if you pay attention throughout the film you’d see how broken these kids are.
The film is meant to make you uncomfortable. It’s supposed to take your rose-colored glasses off and see what a lot of kids are doing. What this film does differently is that it doesn’t have all the Hollywood effects as other teen movies. I’ve seen sex, drugs, and parties in other films but they didn’t seem real. This film was real. It showed the ugly parts because that’s the truth.






