I Struggle With Writing Every Day

I’m in the fourth month of my Medium journey. I have been trying to write weekly but I get bogged down. This is due to a few reasons: my ongoing struggles with mental health, feeling overwhelmed with my work-life balance, and issues with self-esteem. Reasons, aside, I know, if I had to, I could write an article every day but I also know my quality would suffer. So, what should I do?
Advice: Write Every Day.
Along with reading every day, the best advice I’ve received came from a creative writing class I took for fun. That of course was to write every day.
I’ve tried NaNoWriMo a few times and found success in their shorter writing retreats in April and July. I managed to write two novellas that I’ve been wanting to edit for ages. The whole exercise, for me, was learning to write every day to complete a longer project which is something I tend to struggle with.
When I was finishing my masters, the regular end-of-semester term papers made me feel like I was drowning with the academic writing I was doing at times and I found respite in writing fanfiction on the side.
Fanfiction itself, while many would contend it isn’t “real” writing, allowed me to get the writing bug when I was still and middle and high school at an early age and rediscover writing during a time of my life where I struggled with depression.
I know what it takes to write every day. I’ve done it before but right now, it seems like an impossible task.
Burn Out? Try Identity Crisis.
I can’t describe it. I’m just tired. I feel broken. I can’t create like I used to.
I’ve always prided myself in my ability to write and the fact I’ve always written for myself. I’ve even written an article about the same subject. But lately, I can’t help feel out of it. I struggle with the simplest things like writing an email. I find coming up with words to weave into intricate prose extremely difficult. Even coming up with ideas feels impossible. I try to set myself a goal of writing at least one post (either Medium or my blog) and to continue working on my creative writing efforts.
I can’t force myself to write every day for the sake of just writing regularly. At that point, it becomes self-defeating and I find that hate the task. I promised myself to write things that I found engaging and fascinating, hoping that in the process, my writing wouldn’t sound whiney. Much like this article does, unfortunately.
I can’t force myself to write every day if I can’t figure out to tap into the same spirit of writing that first got me excited years ago. I just hope I can write something that has some sort of meaning and importance that it once had years ago.
Keep Trying.
I’ll be frank. I’m frustrated and a bit pissed off at myself about the lack of personal progress. I expected more. A lot more. But at one point, I wanted to write. I feel like I have lost sight of the reason why, but I hope I can find it again soon. Even if I’m not writing every single day.
