I Scream Out In My Dreams, But When I’m Alive I Quietly Bleed
Rehashing the mistakes of my past
As darkness overtakes I can’t escape This wickedness It finds me and encapsulates
Troubled in the mind Nothing seems divine No one is kind A fine line I stay on the edge of it, always Those are my crimes
Feelings are clouded My heart has always been drowning Hope doesn’t exist Only hate And all the things we wish didn’t persist
My being is a hole Lost Empty You’d never find a goal The endlessness of life It takes a heavy toll Everything it bears is disintegrating to my soul
I scream out in my dreams But when I’m alive I quietly bleed Passed down from generations I’m their demonic seed Within me, you can try to find something That I’ll never be
A dagger to the heart of everyone I love I don’t know how to love I only know how to self destruct
Keep hoping I’ll heal But in time, it will all be revealed Whether I can be saved Or whether to my demons, I yield
I am the eye of destruction Encapsulated in emotional eruption The volcano has exploded My life before my eyes has eroded
Bathing in my own blood I look at myself in the mirror And I feel my skin It all reminds me of how I began And now I’m back to square one Hello again, friend
Is this a fantasy? Or is this my reality? Watching my life fold before my eyes Was this my purpose? Or was this my destined demise?
Black skies More lies Toxicity finds me And within me, it thrives Is this the part where I become alive Or die?
I don’t know I lost track of which train I got on A long time ago
North South East West I always go in every direction It’s always a uniformed mess I digress and digress Until I’m too far along to go back to anything Except for another test
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This happens all in my mind I tell them every day I love them And I’m fine