I Quit Alcohol But Still Drunk
It doesn't matter for life. if you are sober or drunk
it has been 5 years since I quit alcohol, it was hard in the first week I was feeling lost and I needed to drink again to find myself through the Hallucinations
indeed to fall down and sleep wherever I fall and pass out.
since then, as I remember is the last time I slept well
it was a daily ritual to drink every night …. my life was written from the very morning
it was all clear to me, it doesn't matter what will happen in the day, in the end, I will back to my room and feel the time timeless
I will feel the moment will last forever
—precious —all I was wanting is to sing this song and drink — — love-
I can be happy I can be me and I can forget everything and be “nothing and anything I want “
that is what I live through day to another
till I feel tired hopeless, worthless dirty and my breath is whisky
and my face is red and fat, I do not have any energy to do the easiest task
didn't care for anything including my family wife brother, sister, and my work
I did not even notice my father had passed away till I quit drinking
I took a lot of risks and my value to myself was zero, I would risk myself on the silliest matters
I would like to sacrifice myself for the sake of meme or being a hero
Until I finally made the decision and quit alcohol, it was a living hell to be an alcoholic person ..still miss some good old days
but there was a tragic permanent event !!
it is “life” itself,
life will fucking surprise you and it will fuck you up it is such a (wicked bitch)
it tickles you till you cry in the most disgusting way
didn't have a chance to live as a sober person, life will not make me sober at all
every day you will have issues and problems to deal with and solve
for me, I prefer to stay drunk
but you know it is a life and we must live it all, and face it
and it is a good life
Planet Earth is such an amazing planet to be born in
it reminds me of Rick and Morty, isn't it so similar to it
now it is been 5 years without alcohol and yes
I admit it
I am feeling better, and stronger
there is no escape and no way to numb your feeling
you must deal with it and live.
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