I Know Why You Seek Attention

“Good morning, Alex!”
“Hi Ashley! How are you?”
“Great. I’ve been on this new diet for just two weeks and the results are stunning. Don’t you think so too?”
“Yes, absolutely. You look stunning.”
Replace the names with your own and that of a friend or co-worker. Replace the thing in question with whatever you attained recently. Replace the how you got it with what you actually did.
The reason why you started the conversation will always be the same:
You seek attention.
No?
Yes.
Even if you didn’t think about it at that moment, something inside you craved the attention. And if your entrance, posture, facial expression weren’t enough to turn heads, you helped the people along.
That’s actually how deeply rooted this desire is: To the extent that you do it without perceiving, let alone thinking about it.
Which, in itself, is one answer to why you seek attention:
It’s inherent
You need the confirmation that your group is still approving of you, that you’re still valued and welcomed, a wanted member of the group.
And you need constant reassurance of that.
Reason 2:
You want to influence others
So many people influence you day in, day out with or without you knowing they do. So you want your share and influence others. Exercise power over them.
Top-notch reason:
You want to stand out
Be special.
Extraordinary.
Have people look up and admire you.
You feel small and insignificant every day. Sometimes more than once a day. And it doesn’t even require some bad experience that left you feeling weak, powerless, flat on your back.
Just getting by on a day-to-day basis makes for insignificance.
You’re running a rat race you never wanted to sign up for and have no idea when or how that happened. You have to hustle to make ends meet. You’ve been stripped of your bold plans, great ideas, hopeful ideals.
Just like almost everybody else.
It’s not enough that you’ve had to endure this feeling throughout your childhood and teenage years when you were financially dependent. It continues to haunt you still. As a seemingly independent, self-reliant, poised individual.
The yearning sets in
The yearning to escape this mere existence and get a life. A life worth of this title. A life worth admiring. A life worth making sacrifices for.
The hero that’s born out of suffering.
That’s what you want to be.
But it’s what you can only be when you get other people’s attention. Even if they envy you, hate you, try to discredit you. All better than no attention.
Being self-sufficient is just eternal suffering
Because in that case, you’re a group of one. And how do you stand out from yourself?
- By proving yourself wrong. (About things you thought you could never change.)
- By making progress your goal. (Instead of achieving a certain state and than feeling so empty that you get angry with yourself.)
- By being there for others when they want you there. (As opposed to pushing yourself into the spotlight because you need them for any of the 3 reasons named above.)
You seek attention on yourself so you can draw your own attention away from yourself.
That’s not healthy.
Realize it. Accept it. And then
“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.” (Arthur Ashe)
And you may even end up getting attention because others want to give it. And if they do: Use it wisely.
