I Just Can’t Watch It Anymore

Summary

A 62-year-old nurse expresses her deep distress over the war in Ukraine, her desire to provide hands-on assistance, and her frustration with the global response.

Abstract

The author of the article is deeply troubled by the ongoing conflict in Ukraine, as evidenced by the harrowing images of suffering that haunt her. She feels compelled to help beyond monetary donations, yearning to offer physical aid despite personal challenges like age and lack of a passport. Her nursing background intensifies her empathy, particularly when viewing scenes of medical struggle and human loss. The piece conveys a sense of helplessness and a strong desire for the international community, especially the United States and NATO, to take more decisive action against Putin's aggression. The author also reflects on the irony of Ukraine's nuclear disarmament and questions why more isn't being done to confront Putin, suggesting a bold stance from world powers. She finds some solace in the belief that God is present amidst the suffering and prays for the opportunity to be part of the solution on the ground.

Opinions

The author is emotionally affected by the war in Ukraine, experiencing nightmares from disturbing images of suffering.
She feels a personal responsibility to help, wanting to contribute directly by providing comfort and aid, not just financial support.
The author is critical of the global leadership's hesitance and indecision in responding to the crisis, particularly the US and NATO's reluctance to intervene more forcefully.
She believes that if the US takes a stronger stance, other NATO countries would follow, potentially escalating the situation to a game of chicken with Putin.
The author agrees with Senator Lindsey Graham's sentiments regarding the war and thinks that the situation would be different if Trump were in office.
She is critical of President Biden's verbal slip regarding Ukrainians, seeing it as indicative of a larger issue of ineffective leadership.
The author holds a strong belief that divine intervention is occurring in Ukraine and expresses a deep longing to witness and participate in these miracles firsthand.

I’m frustrated because I want to go and help

My television has never been more watched since the 9/11 devastation. Three specific pictures have me in nightmares like never before. The first is the one with a nurse diligently bagging an infant ever so fragile to keep the baby alive. I have done this; I know her pain. The next is a man dragging his disabled son up a stairway as the boy’s legs just bang bang against each step. The last was the one that made me throw up. Garbage bags of deceased humans being thrown into open six-foot-deep trenches. All thrown away like wood burnt in a fire pit.

I just can’t watch it anymore. Families who just a day ago were trying to figure what the weekend activities were going to be, wake up in a nightmare like something out of the twilight zone. This is 2022, this should not be happening!

I want to help. I don’t want to write a check, although I will, but I want to go there and help. Yes, me a 62-year-old grandmother with a bad back but a damn good nurse. I want to go and give someone a hug or hand somebody a water bottle or help change a diaper, or even deliver a baby! I want to bring some hope to someone who has lost everything they ever knew. And yet I can’t. I don’t have a passport and how would I get there if I did. I’m open to any ideas. It’s so damn hard to just sit and watch this horror unfold. I’m not afraid of dying. I’ve lived a good God-fearing life. Why can’t I live out the rest of my days in a war-torn life if I want?

I pray Gods will be done in Ukraine. I pray Gods will be done in these leaders who can’t make their minds up whether to send migs or artillery or soldiers. It’s sickening. What’s so hard to think about is that Ukraine relinquished their nuclear weapons years ago and can’t even stop this war with the turn of a key.

President Truman dropped the bombs on Japan due to the fear that Nazi Germany was developing nuclear weapons. Well, we already know what Putin has. Why don’t we step up with other NATO countries and play a game of chicken with that son of a bitch?? This is 2022 again, world suffering and devastation is not just being watched! No! The outcry is coming from all walks of life! From all people! From all citizens all around the world who are standing in unification to stop this damn war.

The United States is supposed to be seen as the land of milk and honey! Everyone wants to be an American. Are we not the powerplay country?? I just feel like we need to be the bigger person and start putting our feet down. I’m pretty sure that if we start shit that NATO countries would jump right in! It’s just a waiting game to see who has enough balls to start shit first.

After the bombing of the maternity hospital, that should have been the straw that broke the camels back literally! Putin has no conscious! He doesn’t give a shit about anybody but his damn self. He thought, I’m going in to take Ukraine out and when it wasn’t as easy as it was, the man is now getting down and dirty.

I’m in complete agreement with Lindsey Graham. He was just saying what all of us were thinking. And I’ve heard this over and over: If Trump was in office, this wouldn’t be happening, and I agree 110%! Biden can’t even get calling Ukranians right! He called them Iranians in the SOTU speech in case you missed it. I just want to be able to stay calm for 24 hours without screaming at a picture of that bastard on tv.

There are miracles coming out of Ukraine. I know there are!God has been protecting his people. He said where 2 or more are gathered, I also am. Those are the stories I want to hear. Those are the pictures I want to see! Please God, find a way for me to be there with you!

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest!