I Hope This Stays (At Least A Year)

Sometimes I feel like I’m a perfect example of what generation bashers think: Millennials are lazy, entitled narcissists. Wow, that hurts.

Yes, generation bashers exist. At times I can be one too. I try not to be, but I’m just being honest.

New Year is my favorite holiday. It makes me feel like I’m reborn, or that I’m moving onto a new place. I bought a notebook every time a new year was coming. I wouldn’t really call them planners, since I wrote and sketched just about anything there.

But two things are consistent. One — I always wrote my goals for the year. Two — my goals change every year.

If you tell me that your goals constantly change too, I would say that’s okay. That’s normal. It doesn’t make you any less of a person. Live your life the way you want it, hopefully?

However, I’m not for those who make decisions that destroy people, animals, and the environment. I thought that’s supposed to be a given. Well, surprise! We’re now adults who’ve discovered some would actually destroy others for money and power.

I mean… surely I’m not the only one who thinks that’s a very weird goal, right?

Ok, I know it’s not that simple, forgive me. There’s an explanation to greed. Of course, I also want to earn good money and maybe build influence. But if you already own billions and you still want more — can you just tell me why? I’m really curious. (Me writing as if bad leaders care about my thoughts)

Wow, why am I suddenly angry? I just wanted to talk about my goals.

What I’m saying is —

Even though changing goals is ok, I’m not comfortable about it. I look back at how much time I’ve invested on reaching goals that didn’t even last a year. I look back at every single job I was intensely happy and excited to have, but I didn’t even last a year. I look back at past lovers I’d hoped I would marry, but no one even lasted a year.

I hope you’re not a generation basher thinking I’m that kind of Millennial who’s just never satisfied. But if you really are a basher, please leave.

Kidding! I understand you. I hope you understand me, too. Time creates our differences. And so as our wants and needs, I guess.

Through time I keep learning what works for me. Sadly, the pandemic has affected some of my goals. But I have to say it’s also because there’s just so much that I want to try. There’ll be more things coming I’ll find interesting. Right now, one of them is writing here on Medium! I’ve been blogging inconsistently for about 12 years now, but it’s just recently that I’ve considered being serious about writing.

I feel so scared saying that.

I imagine myself going back to this article after a year, and I’ll embarrass myself realizing that another thing didn’t last long. But I’ll say it anyway. I hope this stays.

Plus, what keeps me going is having a purpose. I’m not yet comfortable that my purposes change over time, but as Willem de Kooning says:

“I have to change to stay the same.”

Thanks for your time!

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