I Heard the Birds Chirping Outside My Window
I paused and enjoyed the fleeting moment.
I live in the city, and one hardly notices the familiar urban sounds or noise outside.
Where I live, I would sometimes see birds flying. A lizard would always be walking around in the afternoon; lately, I enjoy the cool breeze that makes me sleep better at night.
There was a time in my life when I hardly noticed anything outside the voice in my head. However, the constant conversations that leave me tired are the same conversations that leave me sad all the time.
Today, when I heard the birds chirping outside the window, I paused and enjoyed the fleeting moment. For a few seconds, I was focused on the birds, and when they left, I thanked the moment for what it was, a moment of awareness.
Cancel the noise
I realized that even if I am alone, there is too much noise in my life. And even if the year has only started, we are pressed to give our attention to people, to our life and to whatever our minds want to focus on, but I also know that no matter how much we plan, no matter how much we prepare, that we can never be ready for what is to come.
Every day I still worry about where I would get the money to live a decent life, but I try to focus on the things I can do to earn more money, and that is by writing, without worrying if what I write will have readers or not.
By being present, by trying my best and by having faith, I have less fear on what the future holds.
If I let my thoughts wander far enough, I would never get things done, but every day I have to rest in my belief that everything will fall into place and that this is where I need to be. For whatever reason, I still don't have the answers.
Faith
Have you ever wondered where do the birds get their food every day?
They feed on what nature brings them. Then, they are provided with enough to fly to their next destination.
They fly without question. Otherwise, if they stop, they either get caught or die.
It is the same with us, and it is the same with me.
I am here because I still need to be here.
I am here to experience life without fear, or if fear does come, I must have the faith that life will get me through my fears and that I need to choose the courage to continue living.
There is no reason to worry about where I will be getting my food, as never in my life had I gone hungry.
Like the birds, I am provided, and sometimes I never notice that it is a miracle that I have food on my table, a shelter over my head, and a bed to sleep at night.
Life
Life never stops when we choose to stop living, a painful lesson I learned through the years.
Being absent in other people's lives doesn't mean their lives don't continue as everyone has a destination to follow.
But life always gives us a second chance, not only to make things right, but to understand what life is all about, and maybe we don't have to fully understand life because if we do, then we always are choosing what we feel we need to do rather than be open to the possibilities of our choices.
As the birds flew and the chirping sound stopped, I knew in my heart that they would fly to where they needed to be, others would see them, while others would ignore them, but they will continue to fly until they reach their final destination in the resting peace of God.
I know someday I will stop flying to be where I need to rest my heart, also in the resting peace of God.