I Have Been Found Guilty! I Am Spending New Year’s Eve In Prison!

Today, I was found guilty! That’s right! I have been convicted!
Like so many, I have to spend New Year’s Eve in the prison of my own home! I have to reflect and take the time to think about what I did!
What did I do to bring fulfillment in my life? What could I have done better?
I think back to that statement about spending New Year’s Eve in prison, and my younger self would have felt like that if I was spending New Year’s Eve at home. I would have felt like that was the biggest sin that I could do. It was almost as if I was punishing myself and not leaving the year without partying all night long.
Do I miss it?
To some degree, I do; maybe not the wild partying, but going out to a place and watching the ball drop, I do. Once in a while, I think about my life before being a single parent and think of the freedoms that I used to have. It is not easy for me to get a night out anymore or have a social life.
I look at my present responsibility, and it is my two boys. If I took off on New Year’s Eve, they would wonder where I was and why I wasn’t spending it with them.
What will I do this New Year’s Eve?
It will depend on my kids and how they are doing. When dealing with two teenage boys with special needs, everything is moment to moment.
If I get alone time, you will find me reflecting in my solitude for the evening, waiting to see what 2024 will bring to me.
While at times it might feel like I am a prisoner in my own home, I do have the freedom to make my mark in the world. I intend to do that in the new year.
