I Escape

Summary

The author has struggled with mental instability and has sought solace through various means, ultimately finding solace in self-love and healthy coping mechanisms.

Abstract

The author of the content has been on a journey to overcome personal challenges, including mental health issues and addictive behaviors. Initially, they attempted to escape their troubles through substance use, impulsive social behavior, humor, and the pursuit of love, striving to embody the qualities they admired in others. Despite some relationships fading over time, the author has managed to maintain lifelong friendships with those who have witnessed their highs and lows. Now, the author has shifted towards healthier forms of escape, such as daydreaming of success and true love, and has learned to sit with discomfort rather than resorting to self-destructive actions. They have embraced a slower pace of life, practicing gratitude and patience, and have found contentment through self-love.

Opinions

The author believes in the transformative power of positive influences and the importance of surrounding oneself with people who embody desired qualities.
They value deep, enduring friendships that have weathered their personal struggles and triumphs.
The author has a reflective perspective on their past coping mechanisms, acknowledging their shift from self-destructive behaviors to healthier outlets.
They express a newfound appreciation for life's experiences, emphasizing the importance of gratitude and patience.
The author suggests that self-love is a key component of their current state of contentment and mental well-being.

I Escape

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I’ve worked hard escaping my insanity with substances, social impulsiveness, humour and mostly by the idea of love. I love with my full heart and would have moulded into perfection in the eyes of my lovers. This was not always the case, and in fact, I always struggled more than the stable men I sought out. But I worked hard. I surrounded myself with positive influence, even at my darkest moments. I thought maybe I could be pushed towards sanity if those around me embodied the qualities I desired. Sadly, many of these connections faded along with my passion for life. With that said, I’ve managed to maintain many lifelong friendships. Friends who have seen me at my worst, and my best.

I escape into daydreams of untouchable success and get lost in fantasies of a true love story. I can only dream. I now sit still with discomfort that envelops my mind and body. Once pushed towards my addictive nature, both with life and love, I now escape with healthy outlets instead of self-destructive and careless actions. I no longer feel the need to move quickly through each experience and instead am now taking in each breath with gratitude and patience. I now find escape in contentment with my newfound self-love.