I Achieved Enlightenment, But I Didn’t Like it
Here’s how I did it

I achieved enlightenment.
Or at least, I think I did.
I’m not too sure.
Enlightenment means to, in Buddhist terms, find out the truth about life and achieve Nirvana and break the cycle of samsara (suffering).
Well I sure haven’t done that.
But something remarkable did happen.
How Did I Do It?
I just finished the movie Lucy. (Terrible movie BTW). Which talked about using 100 percent of our brain’s capacity. Despite being total nonsense it stoked a fire of inspiration in me. To understand more about knowledge and the pursuit of it.
After some digging around and a certain process of thinking something clicked in my brain.
Bam. I achieved enlightenment.
Not necessarily, but what I did was try something out.
Lets visualise it together.
Pretend we all live in a bubble. In that bubble we aren’t fully aware of our actions but much rather we just continue living our lives.
Now after becoming aware of myself and reaching what I call the first stage of awareness. (Awareness of the brain). It was as if I was watching myself outside of the bubble.
What happened after this epiphany was I shut my laptop and went downstairs to join my family eating dinner.
Except my body was moving inside this bubble like everyone else, but my mind was outside of it. Just looking and gazing at everything that was happening.
What’s crazy was while I could understand other people’s emotions and reactions I had none of my own. I just watched the world go by. As an emotionless blob.
So that’s my version of enlightenment. Being completely devoid of emotions.
And it was cool watching the world go by without reacting to it. I had the most mental clarity I’ve ever had in a long time.
I took advantage of this room to work and thought sincerely.
Is this it?
Is this what I want?
Have I achieved enlightenment?
If so, cool.
But to be honest it sucked. Why?
Because I saw happiness and joy and other positive emotions still occurring in life. And although I was devoid of all negative emotions for a bit, I also lost all positive emotions.
Which sucked ass.
So to regain that feeling of life, I consciously went back into the bubble of the living and ate my chicken wrap as if nothing had happened.
The lesson: The goal isn’t to be completely devoid of emotions. But rather to be aware of them, to learn to live with them, to control them and not have them control us.






