How to Unblock Yourself

I’m trying to not judge what I create so much. Especially as I am creating, because it can be quite blocking. All I have to do is write or speak. That’s it. And worry about the very next thing.

You can’t create something entirely in your head. Or, at least, I can’t. I have to put it down on paper or voice it. This somehow gives materiality to thought, materiality upon which I can build. With more externalised thoughts. And I think that’s the trick. I’m sure we all have tried to write a poem or an essay or create a piece of music or a painting entirely in our heads. But that is — if not impossible — terribly difficult to do.

When you externalise thoughts, you no longer have to keep them alive in your memory. Also, like this, the next thought has something to link to. Otherwise, you are bound to perpetually start from scratch. There would be little to no development of ideas, little to no depth. Not because your ideas might not be good, but because they would forever remain at an initial stage. In an initial form. You have to let go of an idea for it to develop into something greater, into something better. Otherwise, you hold it so tight that you strangle the life out of it and what remains is empty words.

Take for example this last paragraph. I had no idea I was going to say this. I didn’t have this prepared. I just began writing the first word, then the first part of the first sentence. This gave me an idea about what to write next. And so on. And this is an amazing process. I love it. Because I’m not the expert, trying to act pompously and seriously and meticulously, to maintain a status of superiority. This doesn’t relieve me of the responsibility that comes with writing, but it saves me a great amount of worry and time wasted on concerns of self-importance. I’m just the messenger of ideas that come from more than what I conceive myself to be. I’m just a hatchery of cosmic seeds. When I’m not concerned with my need to come out a certain way.