Summary

The author describes a transformative personal journey from skepticism to embracing unconventional spiritual practices, which they credit with saving their life.

Abstract

The author recounts their transition from a rigidly structured religious and secular upbringing to exploring and accepting a broader range of spiritual beliefs. Initially dismissive of "woo-woo" practices, the author's perspective began to shift through the influence of their father and exposure to various spiritual texts. A severe mental health crisis led them to seek guidance from channeled entities, specifically the teachings of Solera and the Guides, which resulted in significant improvements in their mental health and overall well-being. Despite skepticism from their real-world peers, the author has found solace and healing in these practices and encourages an open mind to the possibilities of the universe.

Opinions

The author initially viewed spiritual practices outside their religious upbringing as nonsensical and gullible.
There is a noted conflict between the author's religious background and the secular, rule-based environment they grew up in.
The author's father played a pivotal role in introducing them to broader spiritual concepts and the idea of Oneness.
The author's mental health crisis was a catalyst for their openness to alternative healing methods, including channeling.
The author has a profound respect for Solera, valuing her education and career achievements as validating her credibility as a channel.
The author believes in the tangible benefits of channeling and other spiritual practices, as they have experienced a significant turnaround in their health and life situation.
Despite societal and personal reservations, the author has come to accept and integrate these unconventional beliefs into their life.
The author advocates for the transformative power of numerology and other esoteric knowledge, as introduced to them through the works of Liberty Forrest.
The author expresses vulnerability and trepidation in sharing their newfound beliefs publicly, requesting understanding and kindness from readers.

How To Expand Your Horizons And Also Not Die

My journey to believing the super weird sh** that saved my life.

Guys, my husband thinks I’m going insane.

That’s okay. I kind of might be.

By the standards of my upbringing, I’ve definitely gone off the wall.

Exploring (Personally) Uncharted Lands Is Kind Of Nuts

I did not intend to go woo-woo.

I grew up very religious (in a good way? In a ‘God loves you and everyone’ way. “Very religious” has a negative connotation sometimes). Spiritual stuff was always there, it was just Very Much Confined to “Jesus Christ died for our sins and also he loves us.”

And then added to that was a pretty secular upbringing where you don’t believe things that are like, weird. People who do crystal-type things are obviously extremely gullible and don’t know how the universe works.

(The two fought, sometimes. I’d find myself apologizing to my friends for believing in God, because obviously that was something to apologize for. Oi.)

Anyway.

Tl;dr (which, as the lovely Liberty Forrest, Author pointed out to me, is a piece of internet-speak that is not universally understood. It stands for “too long; didn’t read” and fundamentally means “so, cutting to the chase”) — woo woo-style stuff was so hilariously beyond the pale that it didn’t exist.

Talking about energy? You better be referring to Einstein. Channels? The English one, exclusively. Numbers mean math, crystals had damn well better be in designer jewelry, and spirit was exclusively The Holy(tm).

It was RULES.

In Which I Evolve, But Sneakily

The rules of the world I grew up in were fairly rigid, re: believing stuff. Thankfully for me, I also grew up with a Dad who’s like, the only Buddha-like corporate lawyer in existence.

My dad has been my expanding-the-horizons guru for years. He told me about Ram Dass and Maharaji. He gave me Autobiography of a Yogi and talked to me about The Universe and our place in it and who we really are. He is about Oneness.

So, I slowly expanded my ideas of what’s possible. Over time. And books kept showing up in my life — books by Abraham Hicks, books that were extremely intended as fiction, but hold some kind of deeply applicable truth that I can go “holy shit” about when I reread them.

I wasn’t always ready for the books, mind you. The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent (Abraham Hicks) sat on a dusty bookshelf for years. But when I was ready, I had them. They were there.

In Which Everything Goes to Absolute Shit, But Then Gets Better

When I was 30, my mental health took not so much a nose-dive as a “FUCK YEAH WE’RE GOING SPELUNKING WOOOOOOO!”

I almost died.

Like, a lot.

Like, for about three years.

It was lame.

But at my worst points, I rediscovered what my dad had been teaching me for years. I started listening to Abraham-Hicks recordings on Youtube (in case you are unaware, they are a collective of entities channeled by a lady named Esther Hicks. I know. It’s nuts. Bear with me).

I started getting better. But the progress was hella glacial.

But then, by the grace of The Big Good Thing, I met Solera.

Solera is also a channel. She channels the Guides. And they clicked a whole lot better.

Solera is a Millennial. She adores cakes and Chanel bags. She went to a top 10 university and was a concert pianist, got offered a job at Google, and was generally all kinds of achieve-y in the type of world I grew up in.

Now, she channels the Guides. And my dudes, this shit is life-changing.

(Literally and specifically for me, because my life has changed).

I had run across Solera in a Facebook group I was in. Initially, I was like lol yeah sure whatever. But as time went on, and I listened to Abraham, the idea of channeling became less weird to me. One adjusts to things. And my dudes, I was desperate to get better.

So, I had a session with the Guides. They gave me a very simple exercise. I did it religiously.

And one year later, my friends, I am sitting here not dying, not in a state of constant mental trauma, and actually able to do things.

I have gotten my life back.

My Belief Systems Now Are Weird As Hell, and I’m About It

By the standards of the IRL world in which I spend most of my time, I’ve gone completely insane. Channeling isn’t real (my husband thinks it’s total hooey), crystals are pretty rocks and you definitely can’t talk to them, and things like psychics and mediums and energy-talk elicit a “holy shit, are you okay?”

(The kindest way I’ve heard it referred to is “alternative.” And it does not mean kind things.)

But you know what? Fuck it. There are some times when you need to readjust your worldview based on your life experience. I didn’t die. I got my life back. The proof is legit in the pudding, as far as I’m concerned (mmmm, pudding. *weeps for going off sugar*).

I’m still being sneaky about everything as far as my real-world friends are concerned. But online friends? *waves hand* Hi! I’m on board with everything! There is immensely more out there than my limited upbringing told me! AND I’M ALIVE TO LEARN IT.

Also, I read a great article by Liberty Forrest, Author on numerology, which I had never really heard of, but this lady is taking a bulldozer to my ignorance on a number of matters and screw it, if channeling can save my life I will learn. It is called This Is Why Numerology Can Change Your Life. (Also she’s generally amazing and happy-making, you should read her stuff just for the good feelings you walk away with alone.)

Also note — holy fuck this is scary to hit publish on. It’s the first time I’ve gone public-ish with my “heads up I believe this stuff?” Do me a solid and be nice about it, even if you also think I’ve gone completely off the wall. *air kisses* Mwah!