How the New Age Spirituality Lost Its Charm To Me

Becoming an old-fashioned spiritual seeker (again) changed my entire life.

The spiritual quest often begins when the old system breaks down and we are forced, for the first time, to confront the ultimate questions of human existence. — David Elkins

Questioning life is the foundation of every seeker. The questions increase when life takes an ugly turn.

I’ve been a seeker all my life. Queries of life intrigued me — ‘What is this life? Why are we born or even living? What is death? What happens after death?’

The thirst for truth took me to extremes. I found much mystical temporary satisfaction.

But none quenched my thirst till I went to the traditional path of seeking.

Little Background Check

I have been a Reiki grandmaster for more than a decade. I learned the art of tarot reading, past life regression, angel healing, and Bach flower healing.

I used the Law of Attraction for my scholarship during my post-graduate dental study. Apart from premonitions and deja vus, I had many esoteric experiences.

Also, being a medium, I relayed messages of people who left their bodies. It started as a sudden trance where my cousin communicated messages through me. He died in an accident in a foreign land. His parents were distraught when they could not see him for the last time. Others benefitted too when they came to know about this.

We all are energetic beings, and energy is constantly surrounding us.

Reiki changed my whole life when it first came into my life. Being a Reiki grandmaster, I witnessed its miraculous healing ability. I even gave reiki to strangers on the train, hostel, and college. Many people experienced phenomenal healing.

During Reiki initiation, my Reiki master also led me to the world of past life regression. It was a humbling experience to help people in extraordinary, mind-boggling ways.

I learned a variety of arts to experience life in its mystical form. But after witnessing wonders, my heart was still dissatisfied.

The Comfort in New Age Spirituality Felt Superficial

Many opportunities came where I could use these arts as a living. But it did not convince my heart.

I knew my spiritual journey was halted.

Remaining stuck on the spiritual path frustrated me. Although I was helping people, it mesmerized them. But the inner thirst was still burning me.

Heart always asked, ‘What is the need for all this when my inner suffering is still present? When will the pain of separation from life end? When will I experience life in its all glory?

My heart longed for a deep connection with the universe. The bling of new age spirituality was short-lived before my thirst.

Even after experiencing magical moments, I was still getting frustrated and judgmental about small things in life.

‘What was the point of momentarily getting in touch with inner divinity and losing it after opening my eyes.? Can’t I always be connected?’

The experiences opened my limited mind to see the vastness of life. I recognized that life spreads across different lives and does not end with the body.

But the thought always echoed — what exactly is life? What is the purpose of this life? Why can’t I be in eternal bliss?

Imagine a tribal boy who never had ice cream. During one peak summer, he tasted it and felt ecstatic. Now he wants to have more. But could not find it. He feels terrible about missing it out. But what could he do? He can only tell stories of it to other kids. But nobody will ever know his craving till they taste it.

Seeking gets intense for those who get a peek at what life is capable of and how magical it can be.

My hunger ate me up from inside. I’d cry for hours for that blissful permanent union that new-age spirituality just gave a glimpse of.

Spirituality Is to Move Inwards Rather Than Correcting the Outside World Or People

Not a single part of life is un-spiritual. We all are on a similar goal of uncovering life as we move ahead. The path may differ.

An intense time comes when the focus shifts from outside to inside.

A considerable leap happens you let life takes its course. Surrendering your will is the key. In helplessness, surrender occurs effortlessly.

In our ignorance, we think we can control life. But life is like a drunkard river, dabbling here and there. But it is dancing on its own accord.

Surrender happens.

I let life take its time and followed it like a puppy. It led me to a closed spiritual group when life deemed it fit.

Did I do anything to learn the mystical art and then let them go away? Did I do anything to join a closed spiritual circle?

No!

All I had was a thirst. I did not know what to do apart from crying and praying.

Life took me to a new-age spirituality. Life robbed me of it. Life made me a part of a closed circle. Life took charge and set things straight when I let it all go.

We think that we have to be somewhere or someplace that is right for us. But we are already in the perfect place, no matter how hard it may seem right now.

We Are Already in a Place and Situation That Suits Our Best Growth

A potato grows underground with no sunlight. Pears can grow in partial shade. A mango ripens in intense summer.

There is nothing wrong or right in our environments.

With the desire to create a perfect environment, the mind creates friction in the ‘now.’ This makes things worse.

Now is the perfect time for your growth. In difficult times, strive to follow your heart.

When the time is right, alchemy happens automatically.

In my case, a catalyst in the form of an enlightened living master blessed me with his presence. Under his guidance, life changed completely.

There remained no need for the small peeks of the mystical world. The hide and seek of bliss and misery evaporated.

No need to look further No need to remain in past. The life flowing in this now became blissfully sufficient.

Life Is Magical In Itself

In our arrogance, we think we are setting the rules. Instead, supreme intelligence is already doing its work diligently.

Life is always playing its game. The question remains, how aware are we while playing it? Do we still think we are in control of life? Do we enjoy what life has already given us?

After all, life is infinite and does not stop at the body's death. The heart and mind may stop, but life goes on and on.

The journey has been a fascinating one. I’ve been everything from the controller to the sufferer.

But when I disappeared, every story associated with it dropped. Only life remained. The spectacular journey of life unfolds and disappears inside itself on its own.

Real spirituality is going through fire. Real spirituality is rebellion against all that is rotten, against all that is past, against all that is being forced on you by others, against all conditionings. Real spirituality is the greatest rebellion there is. It is risky, it is adventurous, it is dangerous. So beware of pseudo spirituality which is always there, available, easily available at the door. — Osho

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