How I Overcame My Severe Depression?
My personal story which brought me epiphany
Disclaimer: This story truly reflects the author’s beliefs. The views expressed here are personal and do not intend to offend or disrespect any faith or belief system. We should respect every religion.
What is depression?
According to the American Psychiatric Association, depression (major depressive disorder) is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think, and how you act. Depression causes feelings of sadness and a loss of interest in activities you once enjoyed. It can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems and can decrease your ability to function at work and at home. Depression symptoms can vary from mild to severe and can include:
Feeling sad or having a depressed mood
Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed
Changes in appetite — weight loss or gain unrelated to dieting
Trouble sleeping or sleeping too much
Loss of energy or increased fatigue
Increase in purposeless physical activity (e.g., inability to sit still, pacing, handwringing) or slowed movements or speech (these actions must be severe enough to be observable by others)
Feeling worthless or guilty
Difficulty thinking, concentrating, or making decisions
Thoughts of death or suicide.
It is the biggest cause of suicides in America and all around the world.
An Epiphany Helpig Me Overcome My Depression
Most of us have experienced depression at some point in our lives, and I was no exception. I faced a severe bout of depression in my early twenties.
I am a born Muslim, and from childhood, we are taught that Allah is our Creator. It is obligatory for us to bow down to Him five times a day, saying our prayers when the Azaan is called. However, I found myself very careless, more interested in this worldly life, and least interested in religion.
I lived a very luxurious and modern life. Many years passed, I completed my studies, and then I got married to a nice husband with good in-laws, giving me no reason to worry.
With the passing of a few months in my married life, I began feeling that something was missing despite having everything a girl could wish for. I felt hollow inside, often sad without reason.
I started having panic attacks, feeling as though something was stuck in my throat, making it hard to breathe.
I consulted a doctor, fearing I had a throat tumor. After a detailed examination, he assured me there was no medical issue; I was suffering from depression.
He prescribed me some medicines, and I felt relieved for a short time. However, my symptoms returned even more severe after a while. The most terrifying aspect was that I initially had no problems, but my condition was worsening. I just wanted to end my life.
One day I was just sitting and crying. Meanwhile, the Azaan call started from a nearby mosque. It was a call:
Allahuu Akbar Allahuu Akbar Allahuu Akbar Allahuu Akbar Aashhadu Allaa ilaaha Illal-Laah Aashhadu Allaa ilaaha Illal-Laah Aashhadu Aanna Muhammadar rasulul-lah Aashhadu Aanna Muhammadar rasulul-lah Haiya ‘Alas-salah Haiya ‘Alas-salah Haiya ‘Alal-falah Haiya ‘Alal-falah Aasaalaatu Khaayrum Minan-Nauum. Aasaalaatu Khaayrum Minan-Nauum. Allahuu Akbar Allahuu Akbar Laa ilaaha Illal-Laah