EROTICA | TRANSGENDER | LGBTQ | MEMOIR/FICTION
How I Got Violated by a Transgirl
And did I like it? A semi-fictional memoir
As I’ve mentioned here and on Twitter I am a Pan. I am panromantic with everyone and pansexual with women, transgenders and non binaries. I tried once to test if homosexuality worked for me and it did not work out. The reason? He did not smell right. He smelled too much like me. I wrote about it here:
I’ve had relationships mostly with women. I’ve had a few platonic-only flings with men and a semi-platonic one with an NB. I’ve only had one ex who was a transgirl (‘girl’ compared to me, since she was 25) and none yet with a transman. This semi-fictional piece is about my transgirl ex. Let’s call her ‘Tania.’
It was roughly 8 years ago. I was 40 and she was 25. We met via FB, we hooked up and on the second date we were at her home making out. We were both tender and rough to each other, but not too rough. She was largely submissive but she could switch. I was a ‘straight Dom’ back then and did not think, at first, of getting fucked by her as well.
However, as the weeks passed we got more intimate with each other. I started, very hesitantly at first, to suck her butthole and eventually I also blew her, which was something I’d never done before. I broke my ‘giving blow job virginity’ with her. She smelled and tasted incredibly.
This somehow turned me on more and I became much harder; was it due to it being a taboo of mine? Don’t know, don’t care. Eventually, at one point, while she switched between rimming and blowing me while I was on my knees I asked her:
“You seem to be very attentive to my butthole. Would you like to fuck it?” she was surprised.
“Only if you do. Do you? Are you sure?” she asked.
“I am Tania. I want to take that huge delicious dick of yours in my ass. Only a few female fingers and a certain 10” dildo have entered that passage but no dick yet. I want you to be my first.”
By the way said 10" dildo is the same dildo I wrote in this erotic poem (I recently updated the poem to add its image) about the era I lived in Stockholm for a while. In other words it’s the same dildo I gaped Astrid’s -and later Rene’s- ass with.
Anyway, let’s get back to my own ass.
“I do too sweetie. I’ve been craving that well-shaved hole for quite some time and I was hesitant to ask you. I’ve already fingered it while blowing you, but I did not know if you thought you could take this.” she showed me her dick that was thicker and longer than ever due to the intense yearning.
“You are about as large and thick as my old dildo, and I can take the entire thing if I relax fully. So do not worry. I know how to relax. Just be gentle and slow at first, until my body gets used to you.” I said.
“Sure thing luv!”
She tongue-fucked my butthole a bit deeper to relax me, gently and then faster, which was incredible. She lubed her fingers and inserted one, then two, and then three fingers in me. She took her time until she felt I was sufficiently relaxed. She then lubed her still rock solid dick and came close to say hello to papa.
The first contact was difficult, as is with everything you do for the first time. This was the moment I would say my final goodbye to decades of toxic masculinity and “You’re the Man, women are pussies with legs” BS from society, friends and certain family members. I’d already done that mentally but not bodily.
“The beginning is the half of everything” the ancient Greeks used to say. So when her dick’s head was in and my anal virginity was “broken” it was easier to get in.
“Am I hurting you Nik?” “No Tania, you are fucking me. Please shut up and keep going.” “Will do luv. My lips are sealed.” she made a zip-like sound and I sensed, without looking, that she made a zip getting closed gesture over her lips.
Then she got gradually bolder. I tried relaxing and getting used to her every step of the way. Like I said, this is far more psychological than physical. It’s not easy for a man who has been born and bred to be ‘The Man’ to get rid of all his social conditioning right away.
But eventually I let go, and took her dick freely and fully. Without talking I signaled her to go deeper, by moving closer to her. She did. And, eventually, she reached rock bottom. It was painful, I admit. But hearing her lustful sighs and feeling her fully inside me gave me the Queen of all hard-ons.
As she gradually fucked me faster and fiercer my pain faded away and was replaced by pure pleasure. I started masturbating, slowly at first. I don’t think I had ever been so hard before.
I wanted to feed her my sperm but she had had enough of it already the same night. She was a greedy little slut, for both my sperm and pee. She took great care to never waste a drop. So I waited until I felt her fill my guts with her seed to ejaculate at the same time.
After 10 or more minutes her release came. She had not cum that day yet, so her balls were packed to the brim. She came in me for almost a minute. I felt a warm sensation fill me to my core and let go of my own seed at the same time — she would lick it from the sheets later. The sensation was beyond words…
Her pleasure sighs and cries sealed the deal. She stayed fully inserted me in me for quite some time. When she got limp and got out I felt empty. Greedy for more she devoured all my cum that started oozing out of me for and cleaned my butt dry. I washed her hungry mouth clean with fresh clear pee, and her dick started reviving.
We kept making love and sex like that until the crack of dawn. In the next round I fucked her with renewed vitality. It was a Sunday the next morning, so neither of us was working. We had a shower together, and slept like babies cuddled in each other’s arms, face to face. Breathing new life and love into each other. 💖
note: I will not disclose if I had my entire 10" dildo inside me while writing this in order to recall the sensation of Tania better. I leave that to your imagination. I will only admit that I got rather excited while writing this story.
