How I Feel After Leaving a Narcissist

Some days like a badass some days not so much

Some days I feel like a screw you badass. Get out of my way. Don’t mess with me. No one is ever going to treat me like this again.

On other days I feel like a Pollyana who lost her unicorn and rainbows.

Some days I feel like the bravest girl in the world. I got this. I did it. I am bold and unstoppable.

On other days I feel like fear is saying, ‘remember me?’

Some days I feel fierce and positive. Ain't no mountain high enough, no valley low enough, no river deep enough.

On other days I feel like this ant can’t move her rubber tree plant.

Some days I feel free. I broke out of prison. I escaped. I secured my emotional pardon. I’m a survivor.

On other days I still feel haunted by those days of confinement.

Some days I feel resurrected. I stole myself back. I reclaimed my power. I’m that girl I used to love.

On other days I still feel like I lost the best parts of me.

Some days I feel ridiculous joy. Laughter is familiar again. My constant smile is retrieved and peace accompanies it.

On other days I still feel like stress is the aftermath I can’t outrun.

Some days I feel in charge. The commander of my destiny. A queen that was restored to power.

On other days I still feel victimized by an evil ogre.

Some days I feel like this is my time. My do-over. My opportunity to shine. My purpose unfolding.

On other days I feel like I’ve lost years of my life, surviving not thriving.

Some days I feel the wonder of the moment. My mind is clear. A focus that allows me to be present.

On other days I still feel preoccupied avoiding another person's games.

Some days I feel like a restored star-gazer. It’s not too late. Go for it. Nothing is impossible. Dreams do come true.

On other days I feel like the ship has sailed without me.

Some days I feel proud. I am resilient. I am capable. I am worthy. I am enough. I am invincible.

On other days I still resist the doubt instilled by a corrupt beast.