How desperate are you to fit in?

Get ready to lose your individuality just to get a sense of belonging.

Disclaimer: This is basically a rant, something which I have been meaning to say for a long time and vent out. So please don't take this in the wrong sense, pardon my language; it is just a testimony of how I felt at a point in my life and I don't feel like that anymore but I think it's important for me to put this out there, and let me point it out that I do not agree with everything I have said in this following piece. So, a bit about me: I’m not anti-social but not very social either; and No, I am Not socially awkward.

People these days want to be a part of something, something bigger than what they consider themselves to be. They need to get a sense of togetherness, a sense of belonging, a social circle; unfortunately, that's not what happens.

I have been to so humble these days with everyone I meet as one should, I am trying my best to be nice to people who aren't nice with me just because I do not want to create any bad blood or a feud between us. I am genuinely trying to be a better person, helping people by going out of my way if I can. And I am not retorting to any trivial arguments or opinions however stupid they might be because I think silence is the best noise as it speaks for itself. I do not have a superiority complex nor inferiority complex, I am happy with who I am. But some people around me are very stupid and so I’m trying my best to be at the same level as they are so that I can understand them and be a part of something. I have so much to say to these idiotic brainless people sitting in front me at times but I don’t because, I want to be good, I want to look good you understand right…?

I’m just letting things go just so as to let others let me be, but I ain’t able to let myself let go this letting go… [I hope you’re following]

I categorically deny that I think of myself as a superior human but I know that I’m very different than these people. Believe me, when I tell you, I cannot pull off this freaking act of being humble and not say what’s on my mind just to fit in with a group of people; just to get a false sense of belonging! I am the way I am and I am not doing to dumb myself down just so as to fit in a group of idiots just so that I have people with whom I can hang out socially!

So let me be clear since I wasn’t, I am done. If you now cross me again...ever I swear to the good Lord I’m gonna hand you your arse and kick you out and send you back to the shit hole you and your shitty mentality have come from.

One thing I have learnt that is you should not be explaining people your point of view who are not receptive who don't have the enough brains to process what you said or what you mean or what you want to convey; what you should do is just nod and say ‘Okay’ with a big curve on your face and get the hell out of there.

I really can’t help you pathetic losers nor will I make myself one just, I love my solitary happiness unlike you all who need to surround themselves with brainless dumbos to function.

I will not dumb myself down so as to let these people think they have even an iota of intelligence cause they don’t !

I ain’t you and to be honest you are fake as fuck and I have elevated myself to a level where you can reach only if you give up your sick mentality.