How Crazy Am I to Leave Everything Behind and Listen to My Soul?

From a social point of view, I had everything. Emotionally, I could barely breathe …

Hi, I’m Anaphielle and I dare to divorce because that’s what my soul tells me! I am an optimistic person and I am always looking for positive elements in negative situations. But recently I discovered that I have limits that I no longer want to cross.

All my life I made choices that helped me survive. I always found myself in bizarre, borderline situations that forced me to choose rationally. That’s how I ended up in a marriage in which, to feel good, I had to lie to myself constantly. I betrayed myself every day and eroded slowly, slowly …

From a social point of view, I had everything. Emotionally, I could barely breathe…

How Crazy Am I to Leave Everything Behind and Listen to My Soul?

You know, choosing this I was told I was running after intangible things. And that I don’t know how to listen to my emotions. That I will give up everything I dreamed of in the past for something uncertain. So, what? I can’t live out of inertia anymore! I don’t want to sit next to a man that makes me feel suffocated.

Yes, I know that any relationship can work if an effort is made. Is that what life is about? About a continuous effort? I refuse to accept such a thing! I won’t go into detail about why I want a divorce. There are a lot of reasons which you can understand from the below article. I wrote it on a day when the sky fell on my head.

And the reason I chose to write everything here is that I want to transmit in real-time the experience I am going through. I want to be honest. I want to help you feel my emotions. I want to share with you an unusual experience. And I will not do this alone.

It’s About FREEDOM and LOVE

I don’t know how much you believe in the Law of Attraction, but I have learned that I attract in my life things according to what I transmit.

And I have always dreamed of living my life near a man that makes me feel peace and love without limits.

Do you want me to tell you the height of the peaks? This man only appeared when I decided to break up with the other man. Somehow it’s like I needed to make room for him, in my life.

The strange thing is that I receive all kinds of advice right now. Everybody is telling me it would be good to stay alone for a while after the divorce. But… surprise! It’s too late for that.

This man who suddenly appeared in my life always knew exactly how to talk to me, how to look at me, how to touch me, how to love me … The better I get to know him, the more I feel that I love him more. He’s pragmatic enough to make me feel emotionally protected. And so I no longer feel the need to hide from the world. In his company, I can show my true self without feeling the fear of being hurt. And I feel like I’ve entered into an almost perfect relationship.

Yes, I know the story of love hormones that make you stop thinking rationally. And to believe that the other is perfect. But we have both repeatedly proven to one another that our story is not like that.

It’s Not a Typical Story!

For example, this man appeared in my life during this period, when I started the divorce. Of course, my ex-husband did not agree to the divorce and made my time difficult. But in those dark days, when I felt alone… Ryan stayed with me. At the time, I wasn’t even in a relationship with him. And yet, by his way of being, he naturally managed to get me out of the emotional storms I was going through.

I don’t know exactly when I fell in love with Ryan. He was just a guy on the internet. One of the many bloggers on my Facebook friends list. And one day it occurred to me to invite bloggers to participate in guest posts. I also tagged him and that’s how we started talking to each other. We got along from the beginning. And for a while, there was nothing between us.

It’s just that… he was careful enough to realize I wasn’t well. And yet I was just a stranger, and this stranger cared. Do you know what he was doing? He made me laugh. And he didn’t even intend to do that. Then… one day I realized that I started to get attached to him. And I was scared.

I Wanted to Make Him Stay Away!

I thought that my situation was very complicated anyway and that maybe I would end up hurting him. That’s what I told him: “I don’t want to hurt you!“

What did he do? He reacted in a way that made me think. In an unselfish way. And with a lot of empathy. For the first time in my life, I felt understood by a man. But you know what? I was going through so many weird and painful things and I wanted to make him stay away from me. I even tried to get rid of him a few times.

I was afraid that at some point he would get tired of the situation I was in. I did not want him to suffer.

Why couldn’t I give up on him even if we couldn’t have a relationship in a typical way?

My Soul Was Talking to Me! And I Started to Listen!

My soul felt fulfilled. Without effort, there is an indescribable connection between us. He always conveyed affection to me. He still does that. He is a brave, independent, and very ambitious man. And the fact that he dared to open up in front of me and become vulnerable says a lot about him. This made me feel alive. And his smile… it is the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen!

There is a natural attraction between us, based on understanding the other’s sensitivity. And this is so beautiful!

So Why Would I Refuse That?

Words are far too poor to express how I feel when I am with him. I can only express that the Universe brought me the man I asked for. The man with whom I feel peace and fulfillment as I have never felt before. Before, I could only imagine that. I feel it now. And I feel it even if it’s 2000 km between us.

Our story, seen from the outside, sounds something like this: they met on the internet and started dreaming. She’s in a divorce, she has two kids. He is in another country… How many chances would we have? Someone said 1%, and we made 1% a lot.

Because souls have no boundaries and do not think in numbers.

We were brave enough to choose to listen to our souls in a world that works rationally.

Do you think I’m crazy listening to my soul in this way? I will do it! Soon I will meet him again and I’m so happy about it! I started to count the days I have to wait until I will be in his arms again. I will feel again peace and his big love!

Now, from a social point of view, I have almost nothing. Emotionally, I can finally breathe! I feel that I have everything.

We are Anaphielle & Ryan. We created this publication to write our love story in real-time. The goal? We will win! And we want to prove that everything is possible! We will both write here and we hope that our story will inspire you to fight against the entire world to achieve happiness!

We strongly believe that to have the most beautiful things in life, you must be crazy and courageous enough to follow what is “intangible”: the soul!

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