avatarNicola POWYS

Summary

A woman finds solace and home in the depths of the sea, ultimately choosing to end her life there.

Abstract

The text describes a woman who finds joy and solace in the depths of the sea, where she dives daily and finds peace in the silence. She discovers various objects at the bottom of the sea, including a baby buggy, bicycles, and fish carcasses. She enjoys dancing with the slow black sucker fish under the sun's reflected beams. In the end, she decides to take off her mask and breathe in the sea water, choosing to end her life in the place she feels most at home.

Bullet points

  • The woman dives daily in the sea and finds peace in the silence at the bottom.
  • She discovers various objects at the bottom of the sea, including a baby buggy, bicycles, and fish carcasses.
  • She enjoys dancing with the slow black sucker fish under the sun's reflected beams.
  • She decides to take off her mask and breathe in the sea water, choosing to end her life in the place she feels most at home.

Home is where the dancing is.

A spontaneous decision.

Dirty Water. Sculpture by the author.

Diving daily in the air force blue, still, port,

she relishes the completeness of the compressed silence at the chain-strewn bottom.

The heavy water slices like a warm knife through Foie-Gras, and

as she eases into its greasy secrets,

it feels as intrusive as a dead aunt’s bottom drawer.

Here be dragon detritus,

the spill of human histories sunk into the captured sea:

A baby buggy, three bicycles — and a huge roll of electrical cabling.

Some large fish carcasses. Many gossamer nets, bunched billowing –

murky, non-descript objects covered in downy fur; mildewed and not a little repulsive…

Surfacing next to the flat drag boat, she instructs colleagues clearly on the best position for the net -

quickly, — sooner to dive into the solid silence before the end of the shift.

Here is home.

Here she glides, rubber-clad sleek — dancing with the slow black sucker fish

under the stratified glitter beams of the reflected sun.

Her own silent disco.

This time…

This time, when the oxygen runs down and the tugging on the safety rope insists,

she takes off her mask.

As it spirals down to the bottom of the luxury harbour,

she gulps the foetid, meaty water into her lungs, hooks her flippers under a thick green iron chain

and calmly stares up as the oblong shadow of the rescue boat passes overhead

and keeps going.

Happiness
Illumination
Life Journey
Choices
Philosophy Of Mind
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