Herding Raindrops
a poem about emotion
I cry easily, quickly, completely, tenderly — I cry for sad stories, fearful tales, losses, disappointments, and joy — yes, I cry when others may smile or cheer, when a story is heartwarming, inspirational, or hopeful. I cry when seeing sunrises and sunsets, kittens and puppies, and watching people hug in airports, back when I went to airports. I cry at movies with happy endings and TV commercials about unexpected phone calls or guests and early morning coffee.
I cry when I think of my grandchildren and passing time, deceased pets and gentrification, old neighborhoods and all the places where I was once and am not anymore. I cry most for happy memories because they aren’t now, and I cry for now because it will soon be a memory and I cry for the future because it won’t be what I thought it could be.
You tell me to contain my tears, compartmentalize my remembrances, bringing them out when I’m in control but I’m never in control, I teeter on the edge of emotion, slip-sliding down slopes of sentiments, always damp from tears I can’t repress, suppress, or imprison — containing my tears is like the sky herding raindrops, both are impossible.
I’ve always been emotional — quick to cry, laugh, smile, and love. When I’ve tried to be less gushy, my laughter disappeared with my tears. When I tried to be less vulnerable, I lost my ability to love. Age taught me that I am a package deal. To know my heart, you must swim through my tears.
© Dennett 2021
Thanks, Lucy Dan 蛋小姐 (she/her/她), for this prompt:





