He follows me…. here, there, and everywhere
Even if I try running away from it, like a coil the energy hog wraps his snake scales in my skin
Of tender times, I grow and shine, with delight my eyes light
As I go into the enchanted woods, willing to give all my goods and gentle heart
Right after school, fairies emerge, took me to a merry home, feed me cookies and milk
I know how the response unabated revolted around me and my ilk
I go there and say ‘hye’ to the fairies and they go into the heavens to find a swimsuit to take me swimming in beautiful memories
Soon the light and tree smell surrounds my fruity eyes
Like a raspy fruit seed bubbled with dry delight
As we swim in the deluded captivity, with child-like innocence I went missing and bought my own plight
For a baby, I was in the midst of a dungeon of dens, thick green cover,
I liked the tainted scent of death in trees
It soon phased out but remained with me for long
For I know and sense my exciting endearment, hush it out, release the craving of fear
Of deep and deep I went and found a subtle mirror, flabbergasted to see the inner dimensions
I rose pitty eyed, looked through it, and reach for the same space on a different timeline
I feel the wrath of time has been catapulting hard on me
But as the naysayer tooth fairy girl I was, I went back to exploring the woods
The sight I see shook me to the core, like an insect humming the treacherous sound
It came to me; all the pain, sorrow, pleasure, and ground-to-ground feelings of a naysaying small girl
A beam emerge and pushed me hard and I became a lady
With the gardens in ensuing peace in my fandom
I see the rose blossoming with flatulence, I am happy again, coarse, hard, and rough willing to sense the solitaire
Of all the bounty upheaval and lasting, a being riding the horse came in from the humankind
As he traps me with his rough hands and drags me to an unfazed tree
He tries to kill me with a naysaying knife and forces me to bed with him.
As the clouds go dark and the rains start pouring, I try fighting him with might
I try and try but fail, for all I know this went nowhere, it wasn’t meant to go anywhere.
As he tried to reach my belly button with a sickle-like knife
I grow abhorrently amazed, like counting backward, kneeling downwards, and unfazed and unabated.
As my sweats flood my bed and the warm breath of my husband touches my furry face
As, I go beyond and abode looking at the sky from the balcony in dark, dim light. I cried with self-realization
For the same white milk and cookies, of rewinding the swimming lessons, a demon came out on the woods
Tricked me into following a trail, of unknown secrets traveling beyond miles and eons
As the darkness envelops and kingdoms fell to protect me
A short-sighted hall of consciousness fell apart
I remain deeply unattended by myself
So, reckless and repulsive, it makes me feel
As I wake up with scratches everywhere and deeply scourged
My mother saw me and came running to take me to our home
Laid on the grass bedding then and there
The same man foreshadowed in our ramparts
As I see him, I feeble and cry harrowingly but yet cannot speak
Growing fatherless made me lose my brunt and aggressive side
As he peaked at my deformed body, my mother nursed me and I peeked at him. He looked at me with harrowing deeply perversive eyes.
I could feel my heart naked, if there was any more bare and raw version of me there was
For he went that day, amassing a solid pain and disdain to my ever-expanding emotions
Since that day from now, again it started, 4 months until now since the treachery starts happening again
Lines started to blur and miserable times stuck to our mud-thatched door
Back in the abyss and an ensuing struggle starts
For the beloved partner was a second demon and yet he got his way again.
I went sleepless that night and did not say, repeat, or object.
With a scanty sense of boredom left the house in vain
After leaving the conscious utterance I was shifted back to the rageful horse rider
As he coalesced in my skin swollen hurtings flatten, I was in misery
For every ocean had to end somewhere, I tricked him into having his way with me
Used my bare body to lure him to seas and make him drown till his horse bleeds
For the timelines change and shifted back to the gore house
Where dead skulls remain and cultures sink in disdain
As the apathetic monster chameleon, my husband was
His eyes lust you to do things unimaginable and yet he throws you away when you are deemed replaceable
He came and I can smell his suit wreaking havoc with an assuaged spray
For pity that he loves his food as I baked him amazing cookies and milk
He loved it even after his adult days of bulky muscles and having it big between the thighs
For he ate it with unprecedented vigor, satisfaction, and contentment
To my merriment, his neck started shrinking. His compact printed 3D body became a blueberry muffin that meets red plum.
His throat and neck veins are swollen and he fell to the ground.
I left him and he jerked like a fainting waterfall till the white wheatish liquid stopped pouring out.
For the days when I was small, and shifting timelines in despair, again I woke up
But this was really waking up, through all these men to whom I owe my thanks,
Including an abusive father who did all things possible with my child-like mother
If at all I could give it back, as I woke up now, preparing my breakfast, having it,
and heading to court for all the wrongs people like these hellholes commit
I am shocked yet dejected that I see the petty, crude people with no heart
While I laugh in merriment, I get to trap them in their black holes, like I already did with my demonic culprits who are now rotting hard
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