He came to see me after his funeral

A story about unending true love

Raining! It was the monsoon. For five hours it was continuously downpouring just like a storm. The housemaid left early after preparing the dinner as it was gloomy and stormy weather. I had dinner earlier, because I wanted to go to bed early that day. My head was miserably aching due to the severe pain in my heart that had been occurring since the afternoon, just after the funeral. The funeral in “St.Clare” was a hard blow for me. It was difficult to sleep as an unknown pain throbbed into my heart mercilessly for two days. I needed to cry during the afternoon. Actually, I needed it so badly. But I hid my tears, wetting my handkerchief only, as my crying didn’t make any sense at the funeral. His prestige wife and swollen-headed mother did the best part of crying, while I was fighting with my heart to suppress my emotions. When his corpse was kept under the soil, I just returned home at once. There was nobody express my condolence in the funeral ritually. He was the only person I knew there. My pain for him will never end. As I couldn’t close my eyes anymore I sat by the chair, which was kept behind the window. The chair was my best companion which shared all my worries for many years. The room was dimly lit and cold. The rain did not stop even at that moment. I closed my eyes as I had to recall a lot.

Cathy, my baby! “ It’s his voice. How can I hear it now?” I closed my eyes tightly.

Baby, it’s me.

It’s him. Sitting in front of my chair. Looking at me!. Wearing the shirt I gave him for his birthday, we celebrated together. His deep pain was visible from his pale and melancholic face.

Adrian! How do you………..

I just stammered as I couldn’t collect words to talk to him. I was shocked.

My baby, I just came to see you. I couldn’t leave this world until you forgive me and say goodbye.

I couldn’t utter a single word. My tears were helpless as me and fighting hard not to fall but it was a meaningless effort. The tears poured out and I didn’t bother to stop them at that time.

When I was sick, I sent you several messages to visit me at once at least for the last time. But you didn’t come. I ‘m not complaining. I know I was so bad to you. Actually, I have no right to request like that.

Actually…….Frankly…I thought I was mistaken. I thought it was a lie. How could I imagine that you were so sick like that? I thought you were kidding as you did in our college days.

My sobbing was uncontrollable.

Leave my illness aside. Though it was really hard to fight with cancer and bear the pain, that was not enough for the pain I gave you. It is good, God has given me the punishment to suffer for you and pay for my guilt.

Don’t say like that. You have done nothing. It’s our fate.

I wanted to see you before I left this world. I wanted to apologize for what I have done to you.

I started to cry so loud as I couldn’t bear his painful face.

I wanted to hug you and console you in the afternoon. I felt how it was so terrible to bear the pain without pouring a single tear. I know, how much you suffered for these ten years time. I am really sorry about it.

No.Don’t think like that.

No. My heart did not allow me to close my eyes peacefully until I saw you. When I saw you at my funeral, I was so glad as well as I was sad. It is me who missed you.

For God sake Adrian, Don’t cry. I don’t like to see it. I am happy because you came to see me and I know you love me a lot. That is enough for me.

Baby, If you can, please forgive me. I know how my mom insulted you so hastily and put you down from everything. It was so painful for me to imagine how your parents abandoned you because of me. You became lonely and I was so selfish, I couldn’t be with you. But it was not me, it’s my mom. She threatened me, putting her life in front of me. She only needed money and fame. She didn’t think any of us.

Adrian please, Shall we stop this? No need of taking those things. It’s over now. You are no more. For what I am fighting now?

No. Today is my last chance to confess. God would never give another chance to talk to you. Before I leave I must confess everything darling.

He closed his eyes. He was so adorable and peaceful just like our college time.

From the day I dumped you, until my last breath I was not able to be happy. Every night, you haunted in my memory and I couldn’t sleep peacefully. I suffered because I hurt you. I know you suffered a lot too. I know I missed my life with you.

No. Please don’t think like that. I love you as I loved you during our college days. I never feel angry with you. Though I needed to hate you, how could I? I love you a lot. You were my best choice forever. I know how much you were helpless in front of your mom. My love is not so selfish though you were not here with me, I always wished you the best. I was so happy to see your success in the business world. You were always there in my heart forever with my warm wishes. I never let you go, Adrian. You left me only physically. I knew that. I felt it. But I couldn’t bear the loneliness without you. I am happy. Now everything is over.No more boundaries now. I can live beside you until we unite in heaven.

His face enlighted happily. I smiled too. He was so innocent yet.

Yes. You can stay with me here.

He came closer to me and kept his head on my lap. Though I needed to hug him so hard, I couldn’t as I was unable to touch him. Oh God, why didn’t I go to see him at the hospital? His innocent eyes glanced at me. I cried again.

Cathy, No, Don’t cry my baby. I will never leave you till you rest beside me in St Clare. I am waiting. Be strong Cathy! Do whatever you can to make others happy. Tell me everything every night, I will be here to listen to my Cathy’s journey. Don’t be hesitate I will keep my promises hereafter.

Yes, I know. I will Adrian. I will

When you fed up with life, then you can join me. I will be there to accompany you. I know you will. I love you, Adrian.

Me too baby. Now go to your bed and sleep. I will sleep behind you.

I closed my eyes recalling his elegant smile and his warmth.

There will be a time for true love, sometimes after death!