Exploring the Effects of Anxiety Medication

Have I become mentally and socially detached?

Have you ever heard of an app called ‘Lyf’. If not, — it’s an app mostly in the same format as this one or twitter, with the most delightful people that genuinely want to help. I wrote on Lyf so freely; I felt safe there.

Mostly because I was able to be anonymous.

.. and it was a place I could escape and unload.

I started writing on Lyf during a time of extreme depression, nearly 4 years ago. I used it as a daily journal, writing about my mental state and trying to subconsciously bring some light into my days.

Looking back on it is so nostalgic.

All of my raw emotions, right there on screen.

I’m amazed at how vulnerable I was able to be, because I am not so much like that anymore.

Ever since I started taking anti-anxiety meds, I’ve noticed a detachment.

Okay, maybe, but that could be dependent on your definition.

Detachment in Psychology can refer to a defense mechanism where a person emotionally distances themselves from a situation to cope with stress or trauma.

Which honestly explains a lot.

Lately, I’ve been emotionally disengaged, which by definition means..

“Someone that is not deeply involved or connected with their feelings or the feelings of others. They may appear aloof or indifferent.”

— It’s a form of detachment, but not entirely for me.

Maybe I am aloof, but I am still deeply in touch with my emotions, and my ability to empathize with others feelings remains unchanged.

For additional context —

At the start of my anti-anxiety journey this year, I began to work on suppressing my negative thoughts and letting go of the unhealthy habits I’d been holding onto.

I also talked about it a lot less frequently.

Something that I’ve wanted to be able to do for so long.

But then; less frequently turned into not at all.

— Now that I’m no longer experiencing anxiety and depression, I don’t really have the desire to express my emotions, so I just stay to myself.

It’s like I was holding onto my own problems and everyone else’s for so long, and now that I’m free, I don’t want to hold on to anything.

So, am I in a healing state, or did the anti-anxiety meds detach me from my expression and make it all so easy?

..and am I too far gone?

I am isolated, and I love it.

However,

I do understand that in this time, some may choose to let go of the relationship due to a lack of understanding. Nevertheless , I believe that those who are truly meant for me will remain patient with me.

Some people may want to check in, but I’m not in that place at the moment, and I no longer feel the need to explain why.

I’m not sure how long this will last, but it feels necessary.

Maybe a healing state resulting from the alleviation of my anxiety?

Please read the disclaimer below.

What are your opinions on detachment? Feel free to like or criticize. Let me know if there are any other topics you’d like me to write about. We can chat about it in the comment section. 😊

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*Disclaimer*

Anti-anxiety medications, such as benzodiazepines, can have varying effects on individuals. While these medications are often prescribed to reduce anxiety and help individuals feel calmer, they can also lead to feelings of emotional blunting or detachment in some cases. This detachment may manifest as a reduced responsiveness to emotions, including both positive and negative feelings. It’s important to note that not everyone will experience this side effect, and the impact can vary from person to person.

If you are concerned about any side effects or changes in your emotions while taking anti-anxiety medication, it’s crucial to discuss these concerns with a healthcare professional. They can provide guidance on the most suitable medication for your specific situation and monitor your progress to ensure you are getting the best possible treatment.