Getting Our Hearts Ready For School
I spent the first months of COVID telling my son how great it was to be home with his dad and me, outside of virtual education, doing our own thing. We were lucky to be mask-free inside our homes, our outside learning in nature.
We were learning in a safe space, creating a curriculum from nothing but life.
I’m so thankful I could be home with him and my husband. But it’s time for more change. It’s time to go back to the building and experience we call school.
We started this morning with a calendar exercise, showing 25 days of countdown till school.
My son cried and grunted, saying he didn’t want long hours in a ‘stupid building’ wearing a mask all day. We wouldn’t be together as long. We wouldn’t have long Lego sessions or Nerf gun fights all morning. No more pyjamas until 10am.
I’ll miss all of this too.
I’m worried but trying to swallow my anxiety and put on an emotional superheroine face for him.
“School is going to be awesome,” I said, almost convincingly.
After listening to his troubles and letting him expel his six-year-old frustration, I said everybody else felt the same way. He isn’t the only one who is nervous. Other kids are too.
I told him this was a whole new chapter. Those few friends he’s been playing with during the pandemic? He would still see them. But he’d make even more friends. This time he wouldn’t be the youngest at school.
He got excited and began jumping on the bed.
“More friends? I’m in grade one? I’m a big kid? Everyone is going back to school?”
“I wish we could start school sooner,” he said.
If only adults could turn themselves around that quick.
It’s been a year and a half at home, and my only actual job has been to help raise this beautiful human. I’m basking in his presence, knowing everything is going to change soon. With a lump in my throat, I’m already thinking about this bizarre magical time we had. This life on pause brought us the gift of time together; more time than we had wished for. Now it’s coming to a close, and I miss it already.
It’s time to embrace whatever comes next.
If September is back-to-school for you too, I know you’re not without apprehension. I wish you strength and peace in this next chapter. We’re all wading in uncertainty.
But if we can fill our hearts with gratitude, the worry will fade. Enjoy every moment and have those important conversations with your kids. Let them know they are not alone. Acknowledge their fears and tell them more good things are coming.
