Get Up
Frozen in Motherhood-a Poem

Get up. I tell myself, get up. But I don’t. Mommy, please get up, my 7-year-old pleads. My 3-year-old screams for me. I can’t get out of bed. Overwhelmed with all of this responsibility and emotions. Is anyone there? He tells me I make him yell. I make him act like this towards me.
The nightmares still come. I wake up sweating. They are so familiar. But my brain won’t let me remember. I look at my hands, and remember.
I waited for someone to save me. Grabbed onto anyone who said they would. No one could. I’m so far away. I thought that you’d be here by now.
Please don’t let the floor fall through again.
The person I was waiting for all along was me. The anxiety says I’m not enough. I might just combust. Before I’m 30.






