Generational Curse
Been dogged out triple time
By you and your insecurities
Forget the security blanket
Who needs one anyway
They only grow cold
And almost never protect you from the fire
You caught me screaming
You caught me wasting energy in this bottle neck relationship
Squeezing promises into emptiness
And you look at me saying you got problems
I got problems hitting me at the door soon as i turn the knob
I got problems up to here so dont come at me with another problem of yours cause this hemisphere is made up of problems
Thats what you think of me huh
A box to lay all your problems in
Never someone to wrap your arms around
You cradled guns closer to your heart
And trust me I never got close enough to feel the warmth
But I sought after protection
You handed over steel magnolias
And the bullets
Were sacrifices from your lips
Since you were too afraid to tell me yourself
Bet you replicated that same security to your son
Which is why hes out repeating history
And finding his comfort in a drug dealers lies
Because he can’t depend on his father
To bring his adolescent mind
To an understanding peace
Yes I understand ignorance is Bliss
But is it polite to ignore someone reaching out
I guess its proper for you
And I’m supoosed to just live with it right
Im not even sure what amazed me the first time
The fact that you dont care
Or the fact that you won’t care enough to love
You washed it down with that bottle of solutions
You hold to your lips each night
You cradle that bottle like its holds your future
And look on me with disgust like i snatch them every chance i get
Sometimes i wonder if just as youre turning that bottle up
If you see fullfilment inside almost like a keleidoscope of lies
I wonder if it gives you the strength to presevere
Cause as you used to look to me to be you right hand
But that hand always seems to be cradling that bottle
You act as if it is liquid dreams
And with each sip you can taste the freedom
And keep swallowing your addictions gulp by gulp
Find that rainbow at the bottom of that glass
Youll find nightnares so scary
Youll wonder how you ever got to sleep before
They will be too real to ignore
And spoiler alert
Youll find thay youll end up
Right where you began
Ignorant
Is that what we have come to
Refusing my shoulder
Because you figure that youll lay down and die
Before you ever give up your pride to a female
Thats not what you used to think
Its as if that bottle you cradle every night is the poison that turns your heart cold.
And the real you is hidden amongst the ice and salted rim
And theres no room for me between your lips and the tip of the glass
I bet if someone tried to get between you and that cold drink
You would fight to the death
But if I was the bait
You would think twice
Gamble me away like I’m worthless
You putting on boxing gloves to stand in the ring beside your humble aid Jack
But you forget that I was on the front line trying to play defense for us
I must be dumb cuz you played me like a fool
I was thinking this was for you
You only worried about you
I’ll take this as a lesson
Not out of defeat but as a tool
To capture sunny skies and rainbows
Lock them in a dusty box
Hide it under the bed
Because I refuse to risk it all
For you