From New Age to Jesus: My Testimony

How I left the false new age deception for Jesus

For 10 years I was heavily involved in the new age movement practicing anything that falls under the term of ‘trendy spirituality’ from kundalini meditation and yoga, law of attraction, tarot cards, chakra and energy healing, astrology, manifesting with crystals and other pagan based rituals. This is my testimony of how I left the false new age deception for Jesus.

My personal journey into spirituality began in my early twenties when I attended a clairvoyant evening at a spiritualist church with my mum. I had a very profound experience where the medium who was on stage that night gave me a message from a dead person of whom I’d never met and knew nothing of, and my role in this was to pass on the message to someone that I knew.

I was given very specific details about the deceased, along with the name of the living person in which I had to inform. I later found out through delivering that message, that the information I was given was accurate. This completely blew my mind and made me even more curious about the afterlife, so I joined the weekly open circle sessions at the spiritualist church. The open circle was led by two mediums who taught us how to open our chakras, develop our intuition, read tarot cards, give psychic readings, see auras, and contact the dead.

Shortly after opening myself up to the spirit world, I realised that whoever or whatever I was communicating with inside the church, was following me home.

I didn’t know what astral projection was until it happened to me, on the night I went to sleep and left my body. I knew I wasn’t dreaming but that I also wasn’t dead. My body was formless and without density, I could move from one place to another instantly, just by thought alone and I didn’t have a mouth to speak because communication in the astral world is telepathic.

This is when I had my first encounter with a demon. It was the darkest shade of black I’d ever seen, it somewhat resembled an alien and then it shapeshifted into a wild animal-like creature as it towered over my physical body, only inches away from where I lay seemingly asleep in the bed. Its presence of pure evil had me paralyzed with fear and when I made it back into my body I awoke instantly, ran out of the bedroom, cried hysterically for days, and avoided sleep for as long as possible in-case it happened again.

I then suffered a two-year cycle of sleep paralysis which would induce hallucinations where I would see, hear or feel demons torment me as I lay conscious but unable to move, they would plague my dreams, and I even had the terrifying experience of being pulled out of my body while I was awake.

I eventually gave up on the spiritualist church and started to lean on other new age practices. I had a spiritual-based blog, I gave tarot readings on the side and I even studied to become an astrologer. I attended spiritual retreats and participated in group mediations. I also introduced yoga and kundalini meditation to my daily practice in order to access higher levels of consciousness and ultimately merge in oneness with my impersonal, pantheistic God.

Shortly after my son was born, I was made redundant from my job and my very sense of identity fell apart. I struggled to find fulfilment in motherhood alone, so I went on a desperate mission to discover my purpose in life. I would frequently practice the law of attraction and use crystals, in particular for manifesting. I consulted my oracle cards for daily guidance, had a numerology reading, and then a natal chart reading with a famous astrologer. I was obsessed with knowing my future but no two predictions were the same, all the answers were different and just led to more questions.

I even had a past-life regression, hoping it would give me clarity of what I needed to fulfil here in this lifetime. I can say with absolute certainty that the advice I followed as a result of these readings led me down a dark and dangerous path and quite literally ruined my life. My mental health was in rapid decline, and I became unsettled and disturbed after every meditation I did. My anxiety worsened and I felt depressed to the point that I even self-harmed and I was diagnosed with a mental health disorder.

Things changed when I met a Christian at work who was fearless when it came to sharing his faith. One day without meaning to, I revealed a bit too much about myself that caused Tom great alarm. He was well aware of God’s laws and so he felt it his duty to preach the gospel to me, but I was ‘woke’ enough to know that the Bible was just a bunch of fairy tales for grownups.

We argued and debated on and off for many months about our beliefs and when Tom offered me a Gideon’s New Testament, a strange curiosity came over me and I was surprised by my own acceptance of it.

It took over a year for me to see how Jesus was working in my life after that first conversation I had with Tom. I immediately lost interest in using my tarot cards and crystals, and also found that I was unable to meditate, it felt as though I was being spiritually blocked by a powerful force.

I found out months later that Tom had been praying for me, but at the time I decided I had outgrown certain spiritual practices, so I changed things up and began training as an astrologer. I even wrote astrology based articles on my blog which gained a lot of interest and subsequently more followers. But then I randomly stumbled across a testimony of an ex-astrologer who gave up her lifelong career to follow Jesus.

I discovered more testimonies from people who just like me, had explored their own version of God through a variety of new age methods and how they were ultimately saved by Christ.

This led me to embark upon a personal journey to uncover the truth and to expose the dark side of spirituality. I discovered that the entire new age movement mimics the same ideas and themes taught in satanism, including astrology, clairvoyance, the law of attraction, tarot, meditation, energy healing such as reiki, and even yoga.

My entire spiritual practice was based on demonic principles and I’d been living under a spell of deception along with millions of other people around the world. During the time of my research I began reading the New Testament that Tom had given me. I could feel an inner transformation taking place as I learnt about the real Jesus.

Before I even finished reading the gospels, my heart was on fire for the Lord, so I knelt down and prayed for forgiveness and for Jesus to set me free from my sinful life. His presence was undeniable right there in my bedroom, I could feel his authority and his love so strongly that I couldn’t stop crying tears of joy as I had never felt so free and so certain of the truth.

I then committed my first act of obedience by burning all of my tarot cards, new age books, and astrology papers. I buried my crystals and threw away my yoga mat and meditation pillow and anything else I owned that connected me to my old, demonic way of life.

I gave my life to Jesus in March 2021 and my faith was strong until January 2022, when my marriage broke down. As a newly single mother my world fell apart and my faith crumbled, I stopped going to church and I fell back into sin. To fill the void my husband left, I searched for love in the wrong places, and although I turned my back on Jesus, he never gave up on me.

In March 2023 (so 4 months ago) and exactly two years after I first repented, I finally understood that the love I was searching for all along can only come from Jesus himself. He rescued me from the occult, restored my mental health, transformed my heart, and blessed me with the greatest peace. With Jesus, I am complete.