Freedom Untangled

As my mind untangles, the imprisonment of my mania finds freedom in the structure and stability that surrounds me. It is the power of positivity that has once again launched me forward into a life of hope, faith, and love. By slowly peeling back my darkness and the secrets that consumed me and with a willingness for growth, I now find myself quickly sprinting towards a new kind of freedom. A freedom distant from a sense of imprisonment. A freedom full of excitement and anticipation instead of freshly out of a place of fear, pain and trauma. I now believe in myself and my ability to live a life of independence, accountability and with a moral compass full of fulfilling values.

As the torture of my mind fades, I sit quietly and listen to the peaceful sound of the air instead of the voices in my head. I find comfort, safety and security in my breath and in my very being. I find freedom in my soul and an openness to vulnerability that allows for feeling once again. All of my needs have been met, and it is in my hands only to follow through. My pattern of insanity has already been broken. That is not the problem. My commitment to self, though, is a mere desire. I want a connection. I want love. I want freedom. I cannot attract these desires because I want them. It takes work, and this time, I want to fight.

What we, as humans, are capable of enduring is nothing less than a miracle. Living one life may be enough, but to live many takes work. With grace and dignity, I walk away from the web of lies and deceit that once filled me with shame and guilt. I walk into the light; a place where I have been before. The familiarity brings me back to the innocence and purity of my childhood and the freedom of my laugh sings to my desire for a forever youthful soul. This time, I am here to stay.