Forgiveness. A Conversation With my Creator.

I attacked my creator. She offered forgiveness.

I’m an emotional, natural disaster

Standing in front of the mirror; I am defiant. I throw everything back at her: Tornadoes, earthquakes, firestorms, tsunamis — how do you like it?

I vow to become strong, to avenge her most reckless creation; conscious suffering.

I am twelve years old; my parents are divorced. I have no real friends. I’m an emotional cocktail of rage, confusion and debilitating sadness.

I begin a conversation with my creator.

Why?

To offer you everything

At what cost?

Myself

You’re just a liar, cheater, devil? Do you deny it?

No

Where’s your mercy, love, forgiveness?

Within you, my child

What? I don’t understand

I am a liar, cheater and devil. I am also Truth, Honesty and Love. I am all things in a world where all things are possible. My power is absolute; and must be evenly balanced across time, space and all things.

Or what?

Chaos

If that’s true, you must experience unimaginable Pain and Joy.

Yes, now you are starting to understand.

Why would you choose this?

I choose to hold Everything together, so you never have to

Why are you doing this?

Because I love you (I love Everyone)

I called you a liar, cheater, devil…

I Forgive you

I don’t deserve your forgiveness

I offer my forgiveness unconditionally, entirely and forever

Your creation seems impossible to bear

It is exactly so

How can I make it easier for you?

Become a beacon of Truth, Honesty, Love

Where do I begin?

Forgiveness.

Forgive yourself and everyone who ever hurt you; unconditionally, entirely and forever