
Epiphany Blizzard
Have you ever experienced one?
Throughout my life I have experienced times when I am inundated with epiphanies. These cycles of time usually last a week or two or three. They often precede significant life changes.
But currently I am in an epiphany cycle that has been going on for around six or seven weeks. It started shortly after the Winter Solstice and it has shown no signs of letting up. On a daily basis I have been having so many epiphanies that I cannot even remember them all.
But it is not just during my waking hours. I have been having countless epiphanies in my sleep. The epiphanies are so intense that in my dream I will tell myself that it is important and that I have to remember it upon awakening. Then I wake up in the morning and I vaguely remember the epiphany I had in Dreamland and I close my eyes and try to get back into it in order to remember it. Then I wake up again fifteen minutes later and the epiphany is gone. I cannot remember what it was but I can sure remember having it.
And it continues throughout the day. I might have a major epiphany while I am cooking a meal for myself or while I am shoveling snow or while I am rinsing my hair in the shower or while I am shopping at the grocery store or while I am taking out the trash. They just keep coming and coming and coming.
Seriously, if you have one major mind-blowing epiphany during the course of a day you will no doubt remember it. But if you have seven or eight or thirteen epiphanies during the course of a day it gets harder to remember them — or at least it does for my feeble noggin.
It can be a lot like the weather. If your town is hit by a monstrous blizzard you won’t forget it. And you will have ample time to remember it and replay it in your mind as you shovel seemingly countless tons of snow once the snow has stopped falling.
But when your town is hit by one snowstorm after another after another after another and you find yourself shoveling snow day after day after day then all that winter weather seems to meld together into one endless assault on your awareness.
As everyone surely knows, if you want an epiphany all you have to do is ask for one. It is that easy. But not once during these last six or seven weeks of this epiphany blizzard have I asked for an epiphany. Not once. They are coming of their own accord.
I can say the same for the weather. I have not asked for a single snowstorm but so far this winter my little town has already received as much snow as the last three winters combined — and, according to the Pennsylvania rodent, we still have six more weeks of winter to go. The snow never has a chance to fully melt before the next snow storm dumps another layer of snow atop the existing layer.
Epiphanies can be a lot like that when they come in torrential cycles. You barely have time to fully understand one epiphany before the next one arrives and then the next one and then the next one. All you can do is wait for the epiphanies to subside to make collective sense of them all.
I am reminded of a famous quote from the comedian Phyllis Diller. She said, “Raising kids is a lot like shoveling the sidewalk before it stops snowing.”
Maybe raising our awareness is a lot like that, too. We can continuously clear paths through our epiphanies until Spring finally shows up and the sun comes out and together with all that moisture flowers sprout and eventually bloom.
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