Doubts

Summary

The author reflects on personal growth and self-doubt while engaging with a community of sharers and healers.

Abstract

The text is a contemplative piece where the author describes a personal journey of introspection and learning. Initiated by reading the experiences of others, the author embarks on a path of self-improvement, confronting past traumas and embracing healing. The process involves overcoming anxiety and fear, finding a new voice through writing, and sharing personal stories. Despite the progress made, the author grapples with lingering doubts about the value and impact of their contributions to the community, questioning whether they have given back as much as they have received.

Opinions

The author acknowledges the wisdom and support they have gained from the community.
There is a sense of gratitude towards others for helping in personal growth and healing.
The author expresses uncertainty about the reception of their own shared thoughts and stories.
Despite learning a great deal, the author questions if their contributions are truly helpful or sufficient.
The act of writing and sharing is seen as a way to reciprocate the support and knowledge received from others in the community.
The author is hopeful that their posts have a positive impact, even if it's only on a few individuals.
A recurring thought after publishing each post is whether they have balanced the exchange of value within the community.

Wednesday Journal Prompt

A journey started, I walked alone. A better me was my inner plea. My life in limbo locked in my hut. Reading others learning, healing, growing. Others know pain, trauma, damage past. Many work to heal that, they share the way. Searching, healing, even open wounds. Locked doors opened, dark filled rooms. Light I find that comes from within me.

Anxiety, fear, I must find my giving voice. It was there before when I used my tongue. But now its time for my fingers to speak. The tongue worked well when mixed with heart. Use your words, you just have to start. To give back, to help, to share. Do I dare? Diana wise does say you can, the time is now.

Do I think that members old, their thoughts I found so wise and bold. Will they get that in me? Will they see wisdom, heart and soul in what I told? My homespun thoughts that I have shared Did any find my stories bold, or maybe see a lesson sold? From the start and even now the doubts are there.

I’ve learned so much, but the words I do are they really helpful too? Hopeful that for one or some it is true. For this to work the flow must go to me and back. The notification numbers seem to show but… all in all I still have some doubt That I returned all that I took?

I started other posts on things that were out of my control, that I did have doubts on. I decided to dig much deeper and express how much I have learned and gained from all of the people that post here, regularly or periodically. I thank everyone for all the wisdom they have granted me and all the help they have given helping me grow and heal. With me getting so much, each time I push submit a little thought in the back of my mind says… it is enough…