Don’t Try To

Have you ever smiled in front of a wrong answer?

Or perhaps you just avoided the truth with a laugh

Because you felt like there was no connection and

Everything they would understand and accept was

the lie or the simulation of happiness.

I admit it and I deeply regret it…

I have been inauthentic with myself in front of others

Just for their sake and it has never been an option

For my empty soul ’cause I was trying to fill others

This is one of my flaws and I don't know how to stop it

How do I say “no” instead of “yes?”

How do I punch instead of “bless”?

How do I scream instead of…

this actual mess?

And this is not a poem, I promise

It would be too inauthentic and I recognize it

I did not feel like writing this but I did it

Out of my own will to write and be inauthentic

Does that mean that I just took “inauthentic” to the next level?

or I’m just another lame guy who takes down levels…

but wait, we can test this,

don’t clap this if you’re genuinely reading it

if you’re gonna clap it, perhaps you didn’t get the point

which means you’re in that box of “inauthentic”

blah blah.