Don't be Evil Like Me!
A Narrative Poem
My Dear…My lovely pearl… I want you to just listen what I’m saying… These feeling keeps coming to my crusty brain, It’s always surging into my already altered mind, Slapping my muddy consciousness, And trying to break through my evil ego…!
Honestly, I’m trying to not understand Hesitated to make sure everything Because I know what they want… But they keep suppressing, tempted my angel side, Insisting that this is the best! To save you before it’s too late….
Oh, I swear, I can’t do this! But I won’t deny it! Too many calamities come and go, Since I presented in your life As if the troubles become part of us!
And I’ll never be able to forgive myself If something bad happened to you! So…at this moment…I have to do this! Get rid of you from my mind!
Oh God! This is so hard to do….! I swear!! As white as this love, at the bottom of my heart… I really want to keep my promise, To devote my love, my life for you… But all my bastard circumstances Have opened the eyes of my deepest soul, That I should just see you there… In the glory, the sanctity… And only love you in the locked dreams Where no one may never take the key for my hand…!
Please listen to me! I know it’s hard for you Crazily, I don't really want this too! But I can’t! I know I will no have endurance for this pain But I have to do this! Trust me, I do it all for love…! Finally, I have to give up… Losing my true love… Let it go to the holiness and the peace of life
Please don’t argue with me…! You don’t deserve to be with this evil! You have given everything You accept all these mess without complaining Also you have decided to unheed all my flaws But it’s not right for you to live like this You’re a pearl that can’t be scratched
I will fight my ego…..all for love I have to keep you out of this darkness! Your place is not here… Not with me…
Don’t blame this, my pearl... All are my limitations Unable to become your saviour I tried and I couldn’t I still fall in this dark world I can no longer love you with my dark side I know for sure... I'll never be an extraordinary Angel for you I’m worried I will become your villain!
Sorry, I hurt you with this… I know you have the sea love for me But, honestly, I’m powerless, To escape from this darkness...
I have let you down… I waste my life! And even I bring you like me! I have led you to those intoxicating dimension! I have brought you to those unlawful crimes! Did you know this heart keeps on crying, To see you did all that sinfulness for a love reason! And I don’t want you to be worse than that! I am scared! And I won’t be able to forgive myself, If you're really depraved just like me! Totally destroyed and fall deep with me ….!
Listen to me…! This may be the last time I hold your hand We may not be together anymore Forget our love story forever… Promise me to still become a blue pearl for me…! The pearl that will never be faded There’s another man who deserves you more than me Keep shining through the loneliness of my soul, You are not mine, you’re not for me! Just go, now! I don’t want you anymore!
© A Shayens Abran
It’s about a thug guy, a member of gangster who decides to separate with his girlfriend only to save her from any possible situations that would endanger her.
The girl was just as pure as a pearl when they met and then falling in love. She accepts her boyfriend as he is and willingly blend with his tough and dark life. As time flow, the bastard guy realized he has brought her too far! To become a wild girl, doing rogue things, consume drugs together and involved in robberies!
He doesn’t want the worst actually come and threatening her life and her future. Therefore, he decides to split her from the dark world to protect her, to be back to her family, live normal and finds a good guy out there.
He does it because he loves her so much…
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