POETRY
Do You Feel the Fire? Get out of the Heat. Or Embrace Her!
Love and fire go together
I write about fire now. It started in me during a Zoom talk I had with Eva this week. Eva Willman de Donlea is a wild woman dear to my heart. And she’s the very influential founder of 1Earth Institute.
We talked about Australian bushfires.
And I write about solutions now.
For America. Australia. Greece. And beyond…
My writing takes me places. Real places and imaginative places now that I’m stuck home-sitting in Holland because of my breast cancer.
Breast cancer is an interesting process. It’s all about being feminine. About losing my hair and nearly losing my breasts and ovaries. About fear and death. About survival and thriving.
My breast cancer is a period of reflection that’s changing my life forever.
In my country, we say: “It’s no cat piss.” It’s heavy. And burning hot with fevers and infections. I need all the liveliness fire in me to survive. To thrive again.
However, the good news is that I’ve never felt more alive!
The flame in me is burning hot.
My flame is burning the soles of my feet I’m walking on dragon’s stones
My flame is burning the palms of my hands My healing hands. My healing hands
My flame is burning the path of my soul and still, I keep on walking
One foot
After the other
My flame is cleansing and healing My flame is dancing and feeling
I’m dancing my hips in 8s of infinity my feet cooling down in the sea
I’m dancing my feet in rhythms of joy Tap tap tap. Tap tap tap
I’m dancing my bald head in patterns of love Swirling my brain into meaning
My burnt hands are creating the wind
The wind on my salty cheeks
Be with me, my friends, be with me The fire is burning hot
Rescue Recipe
How can you find solutions for your personal problems? Whatever they are. Illness? Love hurt? Work hurt? Family hurt?
Go deep into the effect first. Feel it. Feel it! Feel the heat so badly that after this imaginative period you come out of it with sticky hair and a wet shirt.
Then go rational Cartesian. Make a list or mind map of some interrelated causes. Leave it for a bit. Sleep on it.
The next day, you go into the heat again. Feel it. Feel it! Be daring and feel the full complete hurt until it hurts so much you throw up. You cry. You punch a cushion. Don’t go to others for consolation.
It’s your hurt. You deal with it! Alone!
Come out of the feeling. Take some deep breaths. And draw your ideal future. Don’t be specific. Take the NOW as a starting point. In my drawing, there are birds because I really want to travel to our projects again. There are books with words like music notes. Fluttering around the globe.
There’s a little house in my drawing because I’m homeless now.
What’s in your drawing?
Feel it. Feel your future full of joy.
Dance your painting. Dance the future and feel her.
The last step is the most important one. Start moving. Start searching the internet for houses. Be persistent. Fight for what you want for yourself and for the world. Without hurting others.
The law of attraction is not about sitting still and waiting.
Attraction is for the daring ones. The courageous ones.
Attraction is for us, girls and boys who take action.
Thank you, Gaia, for giving me Wild Writing. © Désirée Driesenaar, 2022