Do you choose to stay in a toxic relationship? How to break the pattern?

I promised her that I would never write about her because it was my fault that I hadn’t written for 8 years. I put in my palm a heart that was continuously crushed by negativity. I received blows that were not aimed at me. I promised that I will not make the same mistake a second time in my life. I accepted to be in a relationship with a dear soul with whom I was convinced that I could build something solid. She pretended to fight alongside me for social and financial convenience. I was sad when I reflected on the situation and realized the truth. I understood that goodness, the plan, the struggle, the attempt are not enough. I understood that people cling to other people for convenience: be it sexual, social, financial, temporary attraction. It is always an intention of opportunism and survival. Either it’s love or it’s not love in the middle. I consider that a true gift from God is a soul that starts with objectivity and that puts the bone to work equally for a common goal and direction. The problem is that when life shakes and everything becomes uncertain, then you find out what kind of partner you have. Unfortunately, it is not written in the instructions when you choose your partner. It doesn’t write, see that it runs like a drunken chicken and loses its balance. At the first pair of eyes, their eyes roll out of their head and they sells you panties to go out on a new date. Of course I’m exaggerating, but I’m certainly not far from the truth. Many people talk about honesty as being temporary. Unfortunately, it takes time and experience to be able to tell people apart. Many people dress nicely but are buried in debt. Many people talk nicely on dates, but when you move in with them, they are some bastards who swear, throw jealous fits, push you away from people, are possessive. Many people sit with the Bible in their hands while they are supreme sinners. I think it is absolutely important to learn to get rid of people. To learn to detach your heart from your chest and change your direction. Don’t let such people enter your mind and be the decision maker. Even if we don’t want to admit it, our partner with whom we live every day brings at least 40% influence in our decisions. That’s why I think it is very important to recognize when we are in a toxic relationship and to separate ourselves mentally. Once the brain tastes the peace and the new opportunities away from the toxic element, it will collaborate to detach itself faster. I am writing again after 8 years. I completely forgot that this filled my soul the most. I have been writing continuously since I was a small child. I wanted to publish and I always deleted my writings, but with all that I love to write. It comes naturally to me. By writing, I healed my soul. I feel like I’m loving life again since I emotionally detached myself from the past. I detached myself from all the loves in my soul. I set them free. I had the courage to let them go. My biggest fear was to let them go. Now I’m experiencing this and it’s wonderful. It is wonderful to understand that you are enough. It is absolutely miraculous to no longer exist with a doubted heart and to do what you love freely in your own order and organization.