Do I Exist Without You?
If there’s no one here to witness me, am I still here?

If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?
In 1710 philosopher George Berkeley responded: “The objects of sense exist only when they are perceived; the trees, therefore, are in the garden no longer than while there is somebody by to perceive them.”
The time-honored thought experiment has been pondered for centuries and, lately, I wonder, too:
If there’s no one to witness me, am I real?
If I’m not seen, am I visible?
If I’m not heard, do my thoughts matter?
If I’m not touched, am I substantial?
If not shared, do our experiences matter?
Who and what, if any, am I, without you?
Am I without you?
We become aware of the void as we fill it.
—Antonio Porchia
I resonate but would propose that we become infinitely more aware of the void as we unfill it.
Then, it folds in on itself, making a black hole.
Longing feels like this: A magnetic pull tugging each pore, inward— ensnaring my gut, engulfing my heart, and choking me as it exits through my mouth.
How do I bear it, you ask?
I sit. And I feel. As this pull spins cycles of silk thread through my insides, I wonder: Unattended, is this pain even real?
I scream into, and out from, the void in hopes to hear myself.
I scramble to assemble the mirror that broke so long ago. To catch a glimpse and prove that yes, indeed:
I do exist.
A response to the Teasin’ Eternity Ideastream, 250 words challenge: What is the darkest thought that’s gone through your mind lately and how are you dealing with it?







