Discovering Grace in Unwritten Pages
Embracing God’s perspective on scribbled ideas and abandoned dreams
For years I carried around an accordion folder with writing ideas on scraps of paper and unfinished writing projects shoved into its folds. These bits and pieces of a writing life that had been pushed to the side by busyness and distraction haunted me.
Guilt, condemnation, and regret were my constant companions. I felt weak, burdened, and shamed when I thought about digging into that folder. All those half-thoughts and scribbled ideas represented my unfaithfulness and disobedience to God’s calling.
Or so I thought…
As I read the book, Writing Devotionals That Stick, the author said something that stopped me in my tracks.
She said that those scraps of paper and story starters, ideas, and fragments of articles represented faithfulness and obedience.
Wait, what????
I had been living with condemnation for so long, feeling that I had abandoned my dreams, disappointed God, and been unfaithful by not sticking with my writing dreams given to me over 20 years ago.
Weren’t all those half-started articles and book ideas evidence that I lacked faith and follow-through? Hadn’t the ship sailed without me? Surely I had missed the train as it pulled out of the depot with others who were more ready, faithful, and obedient than I, right?
But no, God was redeeming this thought right before my eyes as I reread her words:
“…capturing ideas indicates faithfulness in the small things”
— Kathy Widenhouse
Tears of relief and joy, covered in grace, poured down my face. God saw those scraps of paper and seeds of ideas as my faithfulness and obedience to his writing call on my life.
The author likened the saving of this seed journal to the instructions in 1 Timothy:
“…guard what has been entrusted to your care.”
— 1 Timothy 6:20 (NIV)
My deadlines and perfectionistic expectations were not his demands. The browbeating was not from him; it was from me.
I had framed those thoughts with borders of judgment, he was showing me how to reframe them through eyes of grace.
Now those bits and pieces, thoughts hastily jotted on note paper or the backs of napkins are making their way into my writing life. Some have been developed into Medium articles like this one, and other words or images are being refined into the book I’ve always wanted to write.
God is faithful, and he sees your faithfulness, too! Don’t stop saving the ideas, the discarded sentences, or the dreams. They are all being given to you for the right time. One day you will look at them, nod thoughtfully and say, “For such a time as this…now I see what you’ve been doing, God.”
To the faithful, you show yourself faithful.
— Psalm 18:25 (NIV)
In this article, you can read my earlier reflections about the regret I was drowning in:
I pray that you continue to be faithful and guard what God has entrusted to your care! ~Mary
