Diary entries of a girl with ADHD

June 3, 2023
Productivity.
That’s a tricky word for me.
But it’s 5 PM, and today has been quite a productive day for me.
I managed to defy my restless mind and push through.
Even though it was a struggle, I even made it to the gym and made healthy choices, which I’ve been meaning to do, but work has been overwhelming!
I tackled my to-do list and finished a significant amount of work. That sense of accomplishment, just checking some things off my list, brings a glimmer of hope and relief.
As I sit here, still working, I can’t help but acknowledge the constant journey my mind takes me on.
It feels like flying through different universes, processing a ton of thoughts and emotions along the way. It’s overwhelming.
Sometimes, anxiety creeps in, too, unexpectedly. And all thoughts and feelings demand my attention at the same time.
There are moments when I feel like screaming, “I’m only one person!”
I’ve learned to work through it by putting on focus beats, lo-fi or relaxing music, soothing my anxiety and racing thoughts.
I must admit, though, my ever-changing emotions and mood often lead to breakthroughs.
My focus shifts from one task to another, but I’m learning to embrace the dynamic nature of my mind.
Often, they open my eyes to new perspectives, allowing me to understand myself and the world around me on a deeper level.
Amidst the chaos on my desk, I see unfinished tasks from years ago. They serve as a reminder of the challenges I face daily.
My mind can get loud, and the constant self-judgment can be overwhelming, but I’m determined to quiet those voices and replace them with self-compassion.
Here I am, facing each day head-on.
I can’t believe I work tirelessly, juggling a thousand tasks simultaneously, yet some are left uncompleted.
I continue until exhaustion takes over. Most days I feel burned out.
But then I find peace in the sweet embrace of my bed.
And in the morning, I repeat it all over again.
So, dear, whatever, I accept that there are different sides to my ADHD, and sometimes it becomes overwhelming. But I choose to be grateful for the unique perspectives, endless creativity, and overall, this rapid idea generator that I call “mind.”
I end this on a note that I have to embrace the highs and the lows. And I close these pages with hope and determination.
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