Poetry

Depth of Darkness — a Poem

The internal battles of living with a chronic illness

When the doors to outside are impossibly sealed And steel chains hold captive the sole power you wield

When internal voices speak in unending tones And aches of depression ravage all lonely bones

When hiding in your bed the lone safety you find And destructive desires wage cold war on your mind

When frigid and frayed nerves cause your tired heart to race And lasting solitude impossible to face

When bathing and grooming demands more than you’ve got And cooking and cleaning are challenges unfought

When putting on clothing contributes no meaning And veering off blue rails sanity’s careening

When capacity fails to produce lucid words And your vestige of hope took to flight with blackbirds

When thinking of leaving intensifies each fear And strangers reflect back from every shattered mirror

When violent derision permeates your whole heart And effort is fleeting when attempting to start

When cracked and defeated your night prayers for the end And old tear-stained goodbyes the last letters you send

When internal darkness lightning flashes can’t break And illusions of joy impossible to fake

Then time is permitted for your tired soul to heal And dream of tomorrow better times will reveal

October 26, 2019

Until next time, keep fighting.

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