Summary

The article discusses the journey of healing from the repressive effects of toxic masculinity in American culture through embracing authenticity, nurturing oneself, and honoring emotions.

Abstract

The author of the article shares a personal narrative about overcoming the trauma inflicted by toxic masculinity, particularly within religious contexts, and the societal pressure to conform to masculine norms. The piece emphasizes the importance of integrating one's shadows, or repressed emotions and experiences, to achieve a sense of safety and wholeness. It critiques the hyper-masculine, capitalistic culture that undervalues feminine qualities such as empathy and humility, advocating for a balance that includes nurturing, creativity, and emotional intelligence. The author argues that honoring one's feelings is crucial for personal well-being and that sometimes, walking away from toxic environments is necessary for growth and healing. The article serves as a call to embrace vulnerability, create supportive communities, and cultivate self-love and unconditional love for others.

Opinions

The author believes that both men and women suffer from the shadows of pain caused by societal expectations of masculinity.
Religious teachings that enforce gender roles, such as women being quiet and submissive, are seen as traumatic and damaging.
American culture is criticized for valuing productivity and doing over being authentic and emotionally balanced.
The feminine consciousness, with qualities like nurturing, acceptance, and empathy, is presented as essential for healing from toxic masculinity.
The author expresses that abuse survivors exhibit strength and resilience, and that their stories need to be shared and validated.
The article suggests that the capitalistic pursuit of more—money, fame, things—leads to soul undernourishment and a disconnected society.
It is argued that women possess natural leadership skills, such as humility and empathy, which are often undervalued in patriarchal systems.
The piece advocates for reconnecting with the divine feminine energy to balance the hyper-masculine aspects of self and culture.
The author emphasizes the importance of listening to one's body and emotions, viewing them as wise guides for decision-making.
It is stated that environments that do not support well-being and growth should be left behind, and that finding or creating supportive communities is vital for healing.
The act of writing about personal trauma is acknowledged as challenging yet empowering, and necessary for breaking free from societal expectations.
The author concludes with a message of hope and creativity, believing that sharing personal stories can foster healing and a sense of belonging.

Darkness in America: How to Start Healing From Toxic Masculinity

Here’s how we can stop conforming and start being more authentic.

Have you felt repressed? Have you felt ashamed of yourself, of your sexuality, afraid of being too loud? Have you felt embarrassed by your emotions, believing you are too sensitive or dramatic? You are not alone.

“Men who do not turn to face their own pain are too often prone to inflict it on others.”

Both men and women have many shadows, pain that has been shoved away. Every year, over 10 million Americans are victims of psychological and physical abuse from people they love and trust the most. I want to share my trauma with you. I want to share how I have learned to feel safe and whole.

14 years old, Courtesy of the author, Allison Crady

At 14 years old, I was bright, curious, and energized by the world around me. As my healthy adult self, I would tell young Allison, “You are beautiful and full of light. I will give you the unconditional love you need. The people around you are in pain, and it’s not your fault.”

Religion, especially men in religion, traumatized me. Religious teachers taught me that as a woman, I am meant to be quiet, submissive, and “sexually pure.” If I fail to mute myself and save my sexuality for marriage, then I am evil. I am not evil; I am courageous and powerful, and that scares them.

We need to integrate our shadows

Our American culture has become increasingly masculine and toxic. We are taught to be productive above all else, how to do more with our time. We are not taught how to be more authentic, to embrace gratitude, joy, and being.

We need more nurturing, acceptance, curiosity, empathy, and kindness of the feminine consciousness to heal. We need to explore and integrate our shadows, to stop passing judgment on ourselves and each other. We are human beings, not super-humans or machines.

We do not have to pretend to be perfect. We can find safe spaces to explore the darkness. When we integrate our shadows, we stop feeling repressed. We stop accepting the expectations and “truths” that have been given to us. Feeling, exploring, and healing our shadows make us more balanced humans.

“Survivors of abuse show us the strength of their personal spirit every time they smile.”

21 years old, Courtesy of the author, Allison Crady

I was not taught to create physical or emotional boundaries, to keep my heart safe. I had been criticized for dressing immodestly and “being a distraction,” and I felt rebellious. I have been sexually abused by men multiple times, and I felt guilty. It must have been my fault. I never shared my story, and I internalized that guilt.

For years I have struggled with owning my voice, expressing my needs, and embracing my sexuality without feeling ashamed or embarrassed.

I never deserved that treatment. I definitely did not “earn” abuse through my wardrobe. I felt so small and ashamed.

We need to nurture ourselves

Our culture’s Capitalistic messages convince us that we need more to feel happy and complete, i.e. more things, fame, money. Our souls have become under-nourished, and we feel disconnected, disenchanted, and competitive.

Patriarchy has led to so much pain in our country. Women have been told to be more like men to become leaders when actually the average woman has more natural and effective leadership skills, i.e. humility, empathy, inspiration. Men often become leaders with overconfidence and narcissistic behaviors, leading to poor leadership and toxic work environments.

We need to nurture ourselves with our creativity, playfulness, openness, curiosity, kindness, and intuition. We need more collaboration, empathy, psychological safety, and compassion in our personal and professional lives, starting with ourselves. We need to cultivate strong internal relationships.

We need to honor our feelings

Our bodies and emotions are incredibly wise. Studies have shown that our bodies pick up on the relationship and environmental issues long before our minds do.

We are not thinking machines; we are feeling beings who think.

The more we honor our emotions, the less burned out, depressed, anxious, stuck, and out of shape, we’ll be. Awareness and kindness towards our emotions is a superpower.

We need to reconnect with our divine feminine energy to bring balance to our hyper-masculine selves and our hyper-masculine culture.

Instead of trying to fit in, let’s tune in to our own frequencies and surround ourselves with people who resonate, people who want the best for us and who nurture our growth.

Sometimes, we need to walk away

Our work and relationship environments have a strong impact on our well-being. If you find yourself in environments that do not nurture your wellbeing and encourage your growth, then it’s probably time to walk away.

26 years old, Courtesy of the author, Allison Crady

Feeling unworthy and unsupported makes walking away really difficult for most people. Find communities who can relate, find the right therapist, find the people who give you unconditional love, and make yourself one of them. Instead of traveling outward, try exploring inward to learn about yourself, who you want to be.

Writing this article has been very emotionally challenging for me. I started with the idea a few months ago, and I never thought I would feel comfortable or confident enough to share my experiences and feelings on this dark topic. But I know that getting out of the “nice and pretty,” people pleaser box means ruffling feathers and sharing hard stories.

Closing thoughts

I believe being creative heals ourselves and each other. I hope my story helps at least one person to know that they are not alone and that they deserve better unconditional love. You are loved and lovable.